An Honorary Spanish Diva, I am

Experiencia Religiosa

2008-03-27T01:21:00.002-05:00

I find it amazing that Enrique Iglesias has had a solid career for 13 years now in the Spanish world. He has one of the most untangible voices in pop music, up there with Paula Abdul and Madonna....yet all his hits in Spanish are ballads!

I really don't understand it. How can someone with such a lack of vocal technique appeal to people with love songs??? What do people find appealing about it? Even fucking Paulina Rubio and Thalia, who have the thinnest voices in pop, can carry a ballad to the end at least.

So on that note...about his recent "best of" CD. I find it curious how it supposedly covers his number ones of the last 13 years...yet apart from his new songs his last hit included here is from 2002 hee hee. He ignored the Spanish versions of his english "hits" off his last albums.

Whooaaa

2008-03-24T15:08:00.002-05:00

One whole month without writing!! I feel so..dissatached! It's not like I haven't felt the branwaves of communication but shit happens and you get caught up. I think my other blog has kept me busy too but even then this week I havent written on that too.

So what has been up with me? The same old. I've been working a little more than usual, getting closer to 40 hrs a week. So as a result, I have actually had money to live off :) It's been nice! these last 2 weeks I've gone out more than often, I feel like a normal, ordinary working adult. It's been nice. I guess I should be really frugal and hold on to the extra money, see if it grows on me but I have seriously lived frugally for the last...3 years of my lkife. I need to releaser the tight noose of life every now and then and I am glad that the Lord has blessed me with enough to live.

I haven't signed on to Myspace in a while, but let me formally announce to all the peeps who STILL read this blog (and I love each one of you *kiss*) that my birthday is coming up soon..and I am doing something on the weekend before. So on Saturday April 19, 2008, we will be celebrating my 2-6 killer (thats a Chicago inside joke) birthday at a fun Mexican restaurant by my place where karaoke and margaritas will be there :) I never do anything for my birthday as I never see a big deal. But after the year I had in 2007, I feel like celebrating my current state. So fuck yeah, drink on!

So you peeps who know me personally shalt get a Myspace invite (I've also neglected said website in a while as well).

Muah! les quiero!

Beesee..

2008-02-20T00:56:00.006-06:00

Hey folks.

Happy black history month! Hope you are all out learning new things about our African-origined brothers. As for me, I've been up to the same old. Waiting patiently for my tax return. I'm holding on to the extra money, for whatever reason my refund was bigger than normal. Maybe my unemployment helped? I dunno the reasoning but I'm not arguing it. But I am however going to finally enter the 2000's and buy me an iPod :) . I have no issues listening to good ole CD's, but the reality is that times are changing and realistically it's getting harder and harder to go somewhere and buy a CD you're looking for that's not a Top 40 album u can find at Target. And our society nowadays listens to music through the computer as a primary source now so I have to evolve with the times and buy an iPod as I too listen to most of my "new" music thru the computer. That isn't to say I don't still buy CD's, shit I even still buy vinyl! But the times they are-a-becoming-quite-different. I was looking into the different mp3 players and for Macs really they don't seem to make alot of options for them. Most of the "lesser" mp3 players are PC only and even though Zunes (the Microsoft attempt at the iPod market) are Mac friendly now, they are not that much cheaper than an iPod. So why get a bootleg iPod when for 50.00 more I can buy a real one?

So that's that. The other thing that's been keeping me busy is my new music blog!. This is something that I have been meaning to do for the longest time. It's an all-Spanish blog dedicated to all my FLOP artists or flop albums that the public either missed or were oblivious to at the times of their release. So my blog celebrates the good music (at least in my opinion) that deserves a shot. Sorry to my spanish-impaired readers who cannot understand what's written there, but it basically states "where you'll find careers or certain projects that you never knew!".

2008-02-07T03:23:00.000-06:00

Life has been good to me so far. I think each day i live is a new adventure. And while alot of people may not consider my life very adventurous, I myself enjoy every minute of it because NOTHING is ever constant with me. I hesitate to use the word "wrong" when describing something is never in balance with the rest of the things going on in my life. That is if I'm extremely happy something happens to remind me i'm mortal...if i'm extremely poor something comes along that's only temporary but cannot do it because of money...if i'm so sad everyone else around me is so happy.

Each day is a different scenario to me with a different issue, so I never get bored of my life. And I love it! in the imperfections and imbalances of life I find a reason to continue for in the end a cloudy rainstorm is needed to enrich the garden.

I saw you walking with the gay boys..

2008-01-29T01:16:00.000-06:00

Hey folks.

You've probably been wondering where I've been. I've just been quiet. It's been a pretty hectic 2 weeks. Many different things, many different emotions. I'm sure you're no stranger to it. Especially coming from me hahaha. It's been pretty interesting but otherwise nothing has changed. I was single for at least 2 hours not too long ago but for now I've decided to stay in my relationship as when you really love something, you can never give up on it. And as long as 2 people aren't making life impossible to live for one another then there's still hope.

On another unrelated note, I've been singing this song incessantly. I've been on a new wave kick lately and listening to alot of my old compilations/mixes I had. Because ever since the age of 12 (1994) I have been a hardcore 80's boy. I was into the 80's when it was just too soon to be retro and was merely being "old and dated". hahaha. But this song is hot. Hilarious, offensive and controversial but hilarious

Enjoy!

So Far Away

2008-01-11T22:19:00.000-06:00

Hello :)

Thank you all for stopping by :) I've been meaning to stop by and chat. But you all know how life can be at times. Everything can seem so far away when relatively close. Like this song says

So what has been going on with me? Nothing other than working and managing life and its cost to live :) Seriously that's my new year's resolution: manage funds better! I've always prided myself in knowing how to make what little bit of money I have last and prioritizing. But this year I don't want to survive, I WANT TO LIVE! So I have to figure out what I need to do and how to go about it. I needs to feed me and my baby.

The other part to my plan of managing money is based on something I have talked about before. I want a new pet :) I think Chussy fruit needs a friend. I want him to have another dog to play with and learn to be around them. But they are expensive so I need to get it together. I so wish pets were tax deductible, it's so retarded as they technically are dependents. I say anything that requires medical attention is legally a person and a dependent. But by law pets are seen as luxuries. So silly. We need to change that but what can we expect, our society doesn't want to acknowledge same sex civil unions, how can I expect any sort of plausible law that recognizes pets as members of the family?

oh well. I shall continue on the journey. I don't know whats in store for me but I look forward :)

toodles!!

Episode IV - A New Hope

2008-01-03T13:02:00.000-06:00

Happy new year gents!!!

I've been off enjoying myself for this past week. i havent worked since the 29th but I went back today. I feel like my Xmas break is over now. Oh well.

How was your shindigs this year? Mine was fun even though I DID NOT GET DRUNK! That was my plan for the night but it just didn't happen! Earlier that day I had Indian buffet, perhaps that fod swallowed all my buzz? Either way, I had fun being silly at a house party and such and such.

I am so looking forward to 2008. Seriously. I feel that perhaps I can have a full year of knowing where I will be, having a somewhat stead income, going to work daily and also venture out into other areas. The world is my oyster and I demand on not letting the damn thing go bad, I'm keeping this oyster fresh! Eeeew....fish reference. Oh sorry, crustacea.

Anywho folks, thanks for reading and stay tuned!!

The end of this cycle

2007-12-24T11:10:00.000-06:00

What a year this was for me. I’m sure to those reading this blog that phrase has come to be synonymous with this honorary Spanish diva. But that’s how incredible it seems. And moreso that I am standing here alive and smiling. That’s the nature of life I suppose. You get that big box of surprises (no Forrest Gump allusion intended).

In a nutshell, my greatest hits of this year were..

-Having “Rosa Salvaje” reairred at the beginning of January on “Telefutura”. I had not seen this telenovela in years and was so touched to see it again. It kind of brought back weird memories as I didn’t have the most ideal upbringing but it was great seeing this telenovela that I had enjoyed at the age of 5 now as an adult and fully comprehend the dram

-Our break-in at our now former apartment in May. It was very traumatizing for me and I had issues well into the fall with leaving the apartment. It wasn’t moreso for my safety but moreso because of our baby shih tzu. He is so adorable, impressionable and friendly and will probably go with anyone. And dog theft is pretty common in Chicago so that really kept me up for many nights.

-DVD-R’ing 2 different telenovelas (“Rosa Salvaje” and “Camila”) in their entirety totaling 58 DVD’s. You have no idea how long it takes to encode, make menus and arrange each individual DVD. I am so ready to not do that again, but the first one was for me and the last one was for the missus as it stars his Bibi Gaytan.

-Getting to meet George from Nebraska. Such a cool dude that started reading my blog or vice versa. Either way, it was a pleasure getting to know him and moreso meeting in person this year! Gurfren you are way too much for Nebraska, how can u live there? We had a lot of fun going to El Kallejon.

-Having to cut off a very close friend. Earlier this year she had a very traumatic breakup with her ex, I was there for her, answering middle of the night phone calls at my home phone, disturbing my bf’s sleep when he had to go to work the next morning…and on one day when I wasn’t available to be there for her she decided I was no longer her friend, was deleted from her Myspace and all of a sudden became this terrible person with absolutely no regard to previous incidents. So I decided she needed something more than a good friend and I was not willing to be anything more than that. I have my own issues and friends should be there when they are available and willing to be there for you. You shouldn’t hold people accountable for having their own lives to deal with and get irritated because they’re not there at a moment’s notice. It is unfortunate when you think you know someone and despite all the drama that life deals them, they still decide to be dramatic towards you. This is probably the closest I have come to even acknowledging this situation as my stance is to “let things go” which I have. It’s better to leave things be really and even though I’m not going to be dramatic about it, I’m sure she will be and we’re bound to run into one another. I wish her the best.

But even when the ride is bumpy in life, let’s remember that the grittiness of the ride is not what’s important but moving forward is what’s important. As long as you’re moving and getting somewhere.

So I’d like to thank every single person who reads, has read or just stopping by this blog because you Google’d something and directed you here. I enjoy the feedback and enjoy the second opinions on issues I know the answers to deep down inside. May you all have a gr8 year and peace in your hearts. God loves you.

Watch out cuz here we come.

2007-12-23T15:27:00.000-06:00

Howdy guys. Happy winter solstice!

This week has been such a long week for me at work. And it still won't stop for me, I have to work Christmas eve morning for a measly 4.5 hours. Jesus, why bother? But I guess working where I work you have to be open in case of emergencies. But what a long week, it seems like people only have emergencies on the weekends or the very last minute the clinic is open :) Oh well.

That being said, i've been still trying to finish up my minimal Christmas shopping to people. I'm not going to be buried in Christmas shoppers so I kept my things a a minimal. I bought just little things, knick knacks, a CD to those close to me just to let them know I acknowledge them. As for me receiving Xmas gifts, I never count on them and I never expect them but if I receive one, whether an Xmas card or money, I am totally appreciative.

Also, this weekend I saw the new CGI movie "Alvin & The Chipmunks"

Not sure why I caved in. Maybe because they were an important figure of my childhood. So many of the 80's songs I know are because of the Chipmunks. But the movie was surprisingly cute and not overtly sugary and "Disney". It was entertaining. It's interesting how the Chipmunks make a comeback every 20 years. In the 60's..the 80's and now the 00's. The only interesting thing about this movie is their realistic size in the movie, as in the cartoon they were the size of human children! So they decided to make it somewhat closer to plausibility even though they're talking chipmunks. I think the cutest moment had to have been the Alvin singing in the shower clip. That made me giggle.

So in a little while I will be posting my favourite moments of 2007 and my musical picks for this year. Thanks for reading and may you be at peace at the moment of reading this.

SPANISH WORD FOOD FOR THOUGHT
Today's word is "TIERNO"
And it means "cute (literal def=tender)"

"Tiene una carita tan tierna!" = "He has such a cute little face!"

The end of the year

2007-12-19T01:58:00.000-06:00

What a roller coaster it was in 2007 for me...

I will do a proper post on this soon while debating my "greatest hits" of this year. But I would like to take a minute and publicly thank the one thing that really kept me going this year: GOD.

I do not want to sound corny but God is out there and whatever it has planned for you will happen. If you truly see yourself somewhere deep down it is because you are meant to be there by the power of God and all you have to do is remember that it is out there. I have had one of the most challenging years in many different ways, with my personal life, my family, my occupation, my psyche. Everything was put to the test this year and I would like to thank God for never allowing me to go completely insane.

Thank you God for your love even when it makes me bleed. It is my honour to carry on your divine plan and know the future is the only direction worth going towards.

Las Never-beens

2007-12-14T02:36:00.000-06:00

Why does God make me fall for has-beens??

I mean in the Spanish language it's such a headache because their CD's released at the time that flopped are so hard to find. Lately, I have been jamming to a 90's never-been artist from Mexico named MARIANNE. I first knew her because she was featured on the "Mexico Voz y Sentimiento" compilation that was very popular in 1990 that featured pop stars singing Mexican standards. It wasn't until earlier this year that I found someone on Amazon selling her album for relatively cheap that I figured I would get it as I knew who she was and was curious to hear what she had to offer. Never did I expect I would like it so much.

Yes, the title track "Donde Late Mi Corazon" is indeed a Spanish cover of Celine Dion's "Where Does My Heart beat Now?". This woman has one of the most awesome voices I have heard on any pop star. It's versatile enough to appeal to young kids and balladeers. Yet she never really had a hit! It's incredible! She's somewhere along the lines of Amy Grant and Sheena Easton. So apparently she is now singing at some bar in Mexico City and periodically does musicals like Mexico's version of "Rent". Actually, she provided the singing voice of Nala in the Latin American dubbing of "The Lion King".

That I am aware of, she has recorded at least 3 albums and the only song people seem to know her for is a song called "Enciendo Una Vela", that apparently was used by Televisa for World conscious promos on their network as the song speaks on lighting a candle for world peace.

Click here to listen to "Enciendo una Vela"

So just this week. I noticed someone on Mercadolibre.com.mx was selling an album of hers from 1997 so I had to jump on it. I ended up spending 43 dollars for shipping, the CD and the 10.00 fee for using Western Union. That's another thing, why the fuck won't Mexicans open PayPal accounts??? It would make my life much easier.

Anyway, just had to share. Toodles!

T.W.B.

2007-12-07T01:51:00.000-06:00

I must give a shoutout to my fellow blogger who wrote on this issue a while back but is one I am compelled to discuss today, as it is one that we ALL have dealt with.

I am a person who has been working for almost a decade now and have had a total of 11 full time jobs in the last 7 years. I have worked in quite a variety of places in different fields with different kinds of people. Although things are different and all have their way of working, one thing is constant and that is THE WORKPLACE BITCH.

There is always that one person who "knows it all", who "is the only one that works around here" or "keeps this place going". The self-described model employees who spend their days brown nosing and watching others. These people are so bitter in their own lives that they get their kicks in the workplace. The same ones who probably in school had all the answers and no friends to prove it. I have never been one of these people but I see them all the time.

And what do I do? I DON'T TAKE IT. I try my best to not cause drama but when these people watch me, I educatedly put em on check. Most of the time the people who pertain to this group are people WITH NO POWER. So I kindly remind them "You're such an efficient employee, I wonder why you're here down below with the rest of us? You should be management, but you're not. So please, I know my job as that is what I am being paid for. toodles!".

I avoid these people and most of the time don't ever take their shit. And most importantly I have learned not to take things personally as I can identify these folks immediately and know what to say and how to. I don't fall into their traps as when you do they think they can boss you around or even worse come by you even more!

SPANISH WORD FOOD FOR THOUGHT

Today's word is "FASTIDIAR"
And it means "to annoy"

"Ese tipo me fastidia"="That guy annoys me"

2007-12-03T12:14:00.000-06:00

I am never drinking again....(post #344 that i've said this)..

This past weekend I did something I hardly ever do anymore, go on consecutive nights of drinking. Whilst I am proud of myself on my ability to "handle my shit", I still get hangovers. That is to say I don't get drunk, I do. But I'm always aware, I never hurt anyone or myself and never do things out of the ordinary (at least for me).

Friday we went to Nacotheque, which my boo already wrote about. It was fun except the place was small and there were so many people!! It was insane! But I had fun. The DJ dude didn't play anyone of my obscure flop has beens except for Click and Xuxa but I still had fun. At one point I found myself dancing with some girl, the drama!! :P

On Saturday night we went to a house warming party and again, lots of fun. The host had a special party favour which I thought was ana wesome treat: She had a caricaturist draw us! I had never had one before! Me and the missus posed and it came out awesome! As soon as I have it scanned I shall share.

So safe to say after 2 nights of getting drunk up the wazoo (I had a total of 11 gimlets and god knows whatever else in total) my poor liver must be green. And my cigarrette binges too although I must admit I didn't smoke as much as I usually do when I'm ebriated. Although I say I will never drink again, fast forward to this exact comment on New Year's Day :P

Tootles!

Babies

2007-11-27T00:10:00.001-06:00

Hello folks!

May this moment be treating you kindly when reading this. I'm cool right now :) Everything has been OK, not too stressed so far. Been doing good at weeding the drama out of my life even if not completely. My thanksgiving was nice. I had to work that Friday and Saturday though. It's nice though, unlike this exact time last year. Do you folks recall that nightmare?

So lately, I have been kinda "twiddling about" with the idea of adopting another pet. I know it sounds crazy, our baby is expensive as it is and I can barely make ends meet. Well, WE that is. Not forgetting I'm not in this alone :) . But I feel so bad whenever I see this website. There are so many babies out there that need homes and right now they're living in a cage, probably not knowing the warmth of a home or the embrace of an owner. They probably don't even know the concept of not being confined all day other than being walked if lucky. So whenever I think about this I get the urge to just adopt one.

I mean if you love pets and can afford it, I say everyone should adopt one. Pets relieve so much stress and love you unconditionally. You have no idea how many times I sit crying or in a fit of anxiety and all I have to do is look into my dog who wants nothing but my love. It really makes you look at your life situations when you have an animal who lives by instinct and it's instinct is only to be faithful. It's touching :) Dogs are protectors of your home and alert you of danger and cats keep rodents away. So you win with either one :)

I apologize for sounding like a long commercial, I swear I'm not receiving an endorsement :) i just had to share. Sorry for the sappiness.

Love to you all!

SPANISH WORD FOOD FOR THOUGHT

Today's word is "RECURRÍR"
And it means "to resort to"

"Ella siempre recurre a los insultos al discutir temas"="She always resorts to insults when discussing matters"

Snap!

2007-11-22T19:16:00.001-06:00

Happy Turkey day folks :)

Wherever you'll be. Me and the missus and his mother are going to a nice French bistro where they are having Thanksgiving dinner :).

So, as some of you who frequent magazine aisles, you may have noticed the cover of this month's "Vibe" magazine. I couldn't help but notice that this cover was incredible. To the truest definition

This is seriously the WORST cover I have ever seen on a cover of a major magazine. How on Earth could the editor of Vibr approve such a terrible shot? She's grabbing her chest, has a retarded expression on her mouth and looks lost when she's trying to be sexy. I just couldn't believe it. Keyshia is not an ugly girl and if "Top Model" has proven, anyone can be made to look glamorous no matter how plain you look. But this cover looks like a bad Sholastic prom pic. "Look this way, huh??? *SNAP!*"

Anywho, have a great Turkey day y'alls!

Must..have..java!

2007-11-13T01:09:00.000-06:00

Howdy folks!

Today's rant shall be one of my favourite topics: coffee.

Many people dislike it, many people live for it. Some think it's delicious, some dislike it but need the caffeine and some just think it's the grossest thing that's edible. I for one love it.

My history with coffee came when I was 10 years old. Every SATURDAY morning, my parents would drink it either at breakfast or when we were out, at McDonald's. As I previously stated, we used to go looking for garage sales like Lindsay seeks coke. I remember my curiosity so I tried it. And I didn't think it was bad, but I sugared the fuck out of it. I didn't drink it regularly but still, it was there. Not like I stunted my growth (I'm pretty tall, specially for a Messikin).

However, it wasn't until I finally landed a 9-5PM position in downtown Chicago (at the age of 20) that I finally joined the zombie ranks of the morning commuters and started drinking it. I would drink ONE cup a day. I tried Starbucks and thought it was so gross! It wasn't until I tried coffee ANYWHERE else that I realized it wasn't so bad and that the drink wasn't intended to taste like boiled dog turds (don't get me started on Starbucks...)lol!

Even then, I only drank it when I worked. Gradually I started incorporating it into my everyday life and I started trying different forms until I found my favourite way to drink it. Black, one spoonful of sugar and just 2 drips of milk. I have one cup in the morning and one in the late afternoon and that is it.

So, my question is...how much is too much coffee to drink in one day?? Working at cafeterias I can assure you that there are people who devour more coffee in one day than regular water. I for one drink plenty of water in a day (and in turn with coffee result in peepee breaks every 40 minutes). I'm very aware of the effects on coffee, the most obvious being the teeth staining aspect and I try my best to not drink too much and too much sugar on it.

But some people think I drink too much. Is that so?

Oh well, we must probe this issue!

SPANISH WORD FOOD FOR THOUGHT

Today's word is "ZARANDEO (zarr on DAY oh)"
And it means "a shake (as in a person)"

"No respondió hasta que le di un buen zarandeo=He didn't respond until I have him a good shake"

The cage is golden but it's still a prison..

2007-11-09T16:21:00.000-06:00

Howdy folks!

So, for the longest time, I have been talking (to my fellow Mexican acquaintances that is) about this one song that I remember from my childhood. A "norteña" that speaks of an illegal immigrant raising his family in the states only to live in fear and his children dissataching themselves from their roots. I talked about it because I remember the middle interlude being hilariously cheesy with some little beaner boy saying "I don't wanna go back to Mexico! No wey dad!". Me and my brother used to always laugh and say that to my parents.

So it turns out, the song is called "La Jaula De Oro" by Los Tigres Del Norte. Apart from the unintentional humour of the song, it is pretty much a figment of our Mexican-American history and a timeline of the times. And it's so funny how the times have changed. I vividly remember up until shit maybe 1993, it was still uncool for Mexican-Americans to embrace their roots. If you were educated you distanced yourself from anything ethnic and if you were ghetto, you had your own hoodrat existence and the Mexican culture was seen as being ironically "trash". Nowadays I think its much more common for people to take on Mexican peasant culture even if you were born in the States as it is now marketable to Latinos in the USA. Why is it? I think because like African-Americans, Latinos feel that it is their identity and do not want to be a common, culture-less American so embrace the ethnicity of their motherlands. Like I said a thousand times, at the time when I was called "brazer", I was never going to please anyone so I was going to be as beaner as I wanted to be and as Americanized as I wanted to..because I'm only a Mexican to the others and a gringo pocho to the Mexicans. So it is interesting the evolution.

Either way, I have to give a shoutout to a fellow Chicagoan who made a hilarious home video and uploaded it to Youtube. It's dated but very cute!

Enjoy!!

And of course..

SPANISH WORD FOOD FOR THOUGHT

Today's word is "ATAJAR (ott a HARR)"
And it means "to take a shortcut"

"por este rumbo se puede atajar al sitio"="You can shortcut this way to the place"

You think you know some things

2007-11-07T13:48:00.000-06:00

Little black kids...piping hot shovels that steam when they touch water, a heavy back pack, a row of trees, rain, dead ends in residential areas and silence.

What do these things all have in common? That I would like to know! I just had the most randomest dream and I absolutely cannot explain it. It's amazing how the mind works. I wonder what all this means. I was merely fascinated when I woke up today and remembered all these images. Any dream doctors in the house??

How are you all doing today? Thank you all so much for stopping by my blog. Whether you check it daily or once a month, the fact is, you remembered me and i appreciate it. Nothing out of this world has been going on with me. I have a sporadic schedule at work and the hours placement makes me feel like I'm always on and have no time even though in the end I don't have as many hours clocked as it seems I would have. So that's been fun both working and on paytime when you're dissapointed by the results.

Also, I just got over a fever. A slight one at least. I feel much better but last week I was hot and couldn't thinks straight. I even had to miss work on Saturday (our busiest day for the Hospital) cuz I wasn't feeling it. Oh well, I guess I'm allowed to call in sick sometimes.

I have to say that 2007 year has proven to be a mentally enriching year for me. I hesitate to call it a difficult or my most challenging even though it's all true, but I won't because I am actually quite content that God (because it guides me) put all these pieces together so that I may juggle through this puzzle myself. All these many subtle changes around that make a huge difference in my outlook. Even when I think I'm being punished I know the end result will be more wisdom to continue and to get one step closer to my purpose in life :) And no matter how wise I think I am, I'm always learning more about myself.

Thank you all for reading! Mucho amor para vosotros!!

SPANISH WORD FOOD FOR THOUGHT

And today's word is "SENSATO (sense SOUGHT oh)"
And it meants "Wise"

"Fuí lo demasiado sensato al no rendirme tan temprano"="I was wise enough to note give up so early on"

S.O.S.

2007-10-24T22:33:00.000-05:00

So sorry for no updates. I've just been absent minded running about. I promise I will give a more detailed posting later today or tomorrow as to why exactly I find myself with little to no time to sit down and write my thoughts.

Thanks for coming back here and checking to see if I have updates! I love you too!

You Heartless Bitch!

2007-10-05T07:45:00.000-05:00

Hello,

Quickly communicating with ch'all! Thanks for coming. So its very early in the morning of Friday, just got to work and am ready to go.

So, this morning as usual, I go get my coffee at Dunkin' Donuts and people are outside begging. I never ever give these folks money because, well I know better frankly as "heartless" as that sounds. Anywho today I figured "what the hey". I had a few cents in my pocket so I dropped it inside someone's cup. I was not expecting a thank you at all..I mean it is MY spare change that I am sparing right? Well what does the fucker do? He says "come on man!". And I ignore it. On my way out, he asks me again only this time I ignore and keep moving. So what does he do? He grabs whatever change that he gets out of his cup, throws it (at my direction probably) and says "next time don't even bother!".

So, as usual I have my opinions and today was not a disappointing exception, it was reality. As he suggested I won't bother at all next time. These crackheads are there for a reason, they are delusional in thinking the world owes them anything other than a breath of air and are incapable of communicating with the human race. That is why they are stuck where they are and are there until God gives them death or a miraculous exception.

Next time I get accused of being a "heartless bitch" I'll have to recommend folks to give a bum a dime and see what he tells ya.
OOR a muffin which is another post. I had a similiar experience.

Anywho, happy Friday, happy October and toodles! hasta pronto queridos!

It's been 7 hours and 15 days

2007-09-26T15:35:00.001-05:00

...since I took my love away :)

Hi folks! Thanks for coming back to my little e-hole on internetland. I
'preciate your love.

So, nothing much has been going on for me. Life's at a normal standstill. No drama at the time being and trying to keep it that way. It's like when I see my mother calling I go "daaaang!! dont fuck up my streak!". Lol, but I've been good.

So this past Sunday, I finally got a chance to see one of my "A-List Artists" live after many years of wanting to...SINEAD O'CONNOR.

Now keep in mind, regardless of her stature in the pop world and in the general psyche of popular culture who remembers her as the original angry young woman of pop music who "killed her career", Sinead has always been someone I admired and all throughout high school, "The Lion and The Cobra" never left my backpack of CD's I listened to. So its safe to say I was looking forward to this show.

Foremost let me say I SCORED 2nd ROW TICKETS!! I was originally going to buy cheap seats as I am poor and recently got my first real check so I didn't want to spend so much. But I saw on eBay a seller selling these tickets for relatively the same price as cheap seats, placed my bid and to my surprise I won!! So it was so awesome!

She had an opening act, some Irish dude named Damien Dempsey. He was alright, but once he was done, within 5 minutes Sinead and her band come out and she opens with this song

Sinead O'Connor - The Emperors New Clothes
Uploaded by popefucker

She's not a performer. She is not an artist who looks to make a connection with her audience. But that voice...omg, it commands its own immediate connection with you whether you want to or not. Its hypnotic. Normally at shows I sing along with the artist..but for the reasons I listed above, I couldn't do anything else other than fix my vision and attention to this little petite Irish woman. She sang quite a few of her "hits" on this show, alot of songs I was surprised to hear like "You Made Me The Thief Of Your Heart" and "I Guess The Lord Must Be In New York City" from the soundtracks to "In The Name Of The Father" and "You've Got Mail" respectively.

Naturally, she sang her sole global #1 smash "Nothing Compares 2 U", dedicating it to Will Ferrell in the hopes that he will sleep with her someday. LOL! I love Sinead, she is hilarious. She also sang "Thank You For Hearing Me" and "Three Babies". Sorry S.box, she didn't delight us with her rendition of "Guide Me God" :)

My boo boo took a camera but the pictures didn't come out well because the whole stage at the Symphony Center is WHITE so the reflection made everything on stage look dark. This was the best one out of the bunch. Either way, I was too focused on Sinead to even think of distracting myself.

So yes, one more A-lister that I have seen live :) I'm satisfied! And was so pleasantly surprised as to how much more of a great singer Sinead is live. I'll be honest, her last 3 albums haven't really used her trademark banshee powerful voice like she used to in her early days...but live she let it all go and then some. So she hasn't lost it at all! OMG! I would totally see her again but for now I am content that I was able to finally appease myself at least once.

In2TV???

2007-09-20T01:33:00.000-05:00

Wow..do all of you know about this website?

It's an AOL venture similiar to Youtube where they stream full TV shows absolutely free! You have to sit through a few commercials but still! It's so cool! They have alot of shows that normally are not aired like the animated "Beetlejuice" series to "Freddy's Nightmares"!

Amazing!! I hate to sound like a commercial for them but I just had to share. Teehee

Timbiriche!! Woh woh woh...Timbiriche!!

2007-09-20T01:18:00.000-05:00

Ok, so first of all THANK YOU ALL FOR READING as I havent written a proper post all week. I appreciate the love.

But this post is about the concert I went to this weekend. TIMBIRICHE were in town (I think this is their first?) as they recently re-united for their 25th anniversary. All the original members minus Paulina Rubio (who swears she wanted to join but is preggos).

Omg...at first I thought it was just a desperate cash-in as all but the aforementioned Rubio no longer have careers..but this concert WAS FUCKING AMAZING!!! Everything from the set to the setlist was perfect..there was never a dull moment and I never sat down. AND I WAS IN THE FRONT ROW!!

You may have already read on my boo boo's blog about it and have seen the pictures, but at different parts, all but Alix ran right by us at the front row. Such a shame as Alix was my favourite member and had the best voice out of the original female singers. I managed to steal Mariana Garza (not my fave member but still) for a picture. Here it is

And one more thing I want to comment on. Diego Schoenin's bulge! It was giving a show of its own! He was wearing tight leather pants and his whole business was all out there! Check it out

Wow. It was alot of fun. Although I was born when this band debuted and when all the original members left I was still a youngun, I really enjoyed their music. This group may not have been the most talented of the 80's acts from which they emerged but something about them clicked with people. Why else would these so-called "has beens" manage to tour big venues and still click with people? Especially with the Mexican public as they tend to forget people easily and don't worship you unless TV and radio tell you to buy their albums. There was some magic about Timbiriche and this past Saturday I do believe I finally understood why. They are great performers together and deserve all the praise they get.

SPANISH WORD FOOD FOR THOUGHT

Today's word is "DÍCHA" (DEE Chah)
And it means "Elation, immense joy"

"Qué dicha tan enorme sentimos aquel dia!" = "Oh what elation that we felt on that day!"

Annie Lennox is coming to Chicago!!

2007-09-12T23:36:00.000-05:00

I want to go!!!

OCTOBER 19, 2007 @ 7:00PM
Cadillac Palace

Tickets on Sale Saturday, September 15th at 12:00PM

Why oh why does she always come when I'm completely broke?!?! I wont have money until this monday and I am sure the tickets will be gone by then. Last time when she came in 2003 her tickets sold out immediately :( And at that point I was unemployed I remember.

:( What can I do

Cuts Both Ways

2007-09-10T00:52:00.000-05:00

It's so funny how everyone finds it acceptable to be racist against Mexicans and never register how it is indeed racist.

Just this past weekend I heard 2 different comments from people at work. One person was commenting on how she hosted (or her family) a Mexican exchange student who in turn brought his cousin. And she then uttered "That's how it all starts, they give the signal to the rest of their family". And the conversation continued as if making a comment like that was at all appropriate when the topic was not immigration but rather a student exchange.

Then another person was talking about wondering whether an area was safe because it seems kinda iffy. And what was the "iffy" part? That there were always "Mexicans" walking about. Since apparently "iffy" people only come from one country.

I of course stood silent as my stance is knowing how to pick my battles. And in these cases I sit back and am a spectator to the rest of the world as only then will I be able to learn about the general public's psyche opinion on my people. Yes, my people as even though I was born and raised here in the eyes of the world I am no different than anyone else for the aforementioned racist mentality.

I'm not about to question why people say the things they say but I always find it funny how people go on about being "open and liberal" yet are selective in doing so that they make one sided and blind comments like the ones here and never think of it as being narrow minded. I suppose it's the nature of people and that's why we're always fighting one another. Today its "evil Mexicans", tomorrow who knows. I wonder if I'll live long enough to witness tomorrow's persecutee group.

SPANISH WORD FOOD FOR THOUGHT

Today's word is "INGENUA" ( een HEN ooh ah)
And it means "naive"

"Qué opinion mas ingenua!" = "What a naive opinion!"

It's Going To Work Out Fine

2007-09-05T23:32:00.000-05:00

Howdy folks! Happy september!! May this heat fuck off for good!! (or the rest of the year at least)

So, my job's working out well! I'm already learning alot of interesting tidbits and remembering medications and their effects (on dogs at least). I'm sure this bounty of new information will help me in the longrun with my baby :)

The only thing with this job is that they don't really give you a proper break. I don't think it's in their nature. Apart from the vets and techs, there's only 2 receptionists on duty at all times and it can get surprisingly busy! I mean apart from appointment walk-ins there's a ton of phone calls, people coming in to buy prescription food, refilling medications, requesting stuff..etc. So I guess it's really tough to sneak in a break in there. I mean if I really get hungry and it dies down I can run out and buy something but even then it would only be for 10-15 minutes tops. I'm sure I'll learn to live. That's really the only downside of my job so far, I'm quite content :) And even though the hours right now aren't alot I am not about to even look for another job (which would be a second job, I like the idea of working for a vet) at this point. Not for a couple months at least. If I have to even look at Craigslist.org anytime soon I will go crazy!! (which is where I found this job, thank you Craig!)

So apart from that, I've been learning to relax and enjoy my downtime without feeling like I should be online e-mailing jobs. I've been playing video games and catching up on my old Roseanne DVD's :)

Also, I've been relistening to Ike & Tina Turner's material. Which brings me to the feeling that it's such a shame he was never appreciated for being the musical genius he is. I mean the man played with alot of genres that really weren't prominent in the R&B scene. He is also credited for releasing the very first Rock n Roll song in 1956 with "Rocket 88". Not to mention he was the one who moulded Tina Turner into the storm she is today, despite doing so with cruelty and brutality.

He's already in the Rock n Roll hall of fame but to most people outside of the Blues circuit he is simply the asshole that beat Tina. Such a shame. So in spirit of the post, I leave you with this posts title track.

Well folks, thanks for reading! Me luv u long time and I will post again later this week so keep posted!

SPANISH WORD FOOD FOR THOUGHT

Today's word is "ULTRAJE (ool TRAH heh)"
And it means "Outrage"

"Es un ultraje el hecho de no ser nominado!"="The fact of not being nominated is an outrage!"

So the new job...

2007-08-29T18:28:00.000-05:00

I started on Monday, so I've been working for 3 days now. I like it alot!! *sigh* I feel so relieved. I mean I knew I would like it and knew (more like "I know" ) that I have alot to learn but I am sure I'll get the hang of it.

So it's all going good for me...it overjoys me to be able to finally give my bloggers some good feedback for a change! I'm looking forward to The rest of the year for once!

The only sad part is that today there was a man who brought his 17 yr old German Shepperd for a Euthanasia :( . So sad. I mean its inevitable but no matter what it still hurts when it happens.

The new "Halloween".

2007-08-27T23:08:00.000-05:00

Warning: Contains spoilers (even though you should all know the story). Plot details are discussed. Be warned.

And by new I mean a retelling of the original movie, not a sequel.

Robb Zombiie must have gone crazy and remade the original. I can't blame him, it wasn't his idea he was just asked to direct. I saw this movie today and I must say....it was really an unneccessary remake.

You should all know the plot but they beefed it up, LOTS AND LOTS OF GORE AND VIOLENCE, and little more touchups. The movie is split into 2 halves...the first is entirely Michael's childhood, something completely different from the original. They tried to clarify his motives and actions more but still left one confused as it all just seemed more playground for gore.

The second half is his adulthood. The only thing I did find appealing is how they managed to somehow make it seem that Michael's behavior was triggered and not just "an incarnation of evil" as the original was. They also tried to connect Michael's actions to Laurie, his sister (played by Jamie Lee Curtis in the original). I think they tried to execute some sort of sick love, possibly satanic for Laurie but it all was vague and seemed forced when presented in such a bed of violent deaths. However I think to rethink the whole movie they should have done better on the 2nd half instead of just making him into a bloodthirsty killer.

However, I was excited to see Danielle Harris in a Halloween movie again :). She's held a special place in my heart since Halloween 4 as little" Jamie". She plays Annie Brackett. She actually was the victim with the least amount of gore, she got off easy.

Anywho, I wasn't expecting greatness and I found the idea sacriligeous to begin with. But I am a horror fanatic and LOVE the "Halloween" franchise so I decided to give it a shot. We live, we learn.

Howdy ho!

2007-08-26T22:02:00.000-05:00

Omg....I completely ran away from this blog the last 2 weeks with no updates!! I am so sorry! It was part personal and part intentional, I just was down, and didn't feel like I had anything to say.

But on a quick note....I would like to formally announce I GOT A NEW JOB! :)

I start tomorrow & I'm excited! I'll be working as a receptionist/front desk for a Veterinary Clinic! I'm up to the challenge as I have never worked with animals before despite my love for puppies. But they obviously believed in my abilities enough to give me a chance so I will make this work. God, this year has been such a nightmare that I am so relieved and excited that it's finally over and I will have a steady position and income. I am looking forward to the last 4 months of this year and may they make up for the first crappy 8 long months I had to endure.

Thank you all for checking here despite no updates. I appreciate the e-love and e-affection :) May the lord bless you all and keep you in good spirits

Gracias!!

Para "Anonimo"...

2007-08-26T22:01:00.000-05:00

Si....en efectivo mi cuenta en Youtube fue suspendida y yo me niego a regresar. Me podrás encontrar en http://www.gofish.com que es otro sitio de videos y con mucho gusto vuelvo a subir ese y muchos mas videos!

Gracias por buscarme. Te lo agradezco.

Whine up!

2007-08-09T00:39:00.000-05:00

Man, every year there's an "urban" pop song in the summer that is just so damn catchy you can't stop singing it for days. 2003 hosted Lumidee's "Never Leave You (uh oh)", the next year it was Nina Sky and their "Move Ya Body", the following year it was Rihanna's "Pon De Replay" and last year it was that damn Cassie with "Me & U".

This year, that award goes to new pop girl Kat De Luna and her song "Whine Up!"

Kat_deluna_ft_elephant_man-whine up

Fuck, I only had to hear this song ONCE and I was already singing it. I can't get it out of my head! Her CD isn't anything special but this song has a killer hook. It's like a mixture of Kelis's "Milkshake" and the aforementioned Nina Sky song.

Loves it!

Other than that, life has been moving the same. I've been rather moody this past week (sorry lover) and I have had anxiety attacks. I'm sure I'll survive as my only cure for these kind of funks is to KEEP working and going. Whatever I'm doing, I have to keep going.

Toodles!

SPANISH WORD FOOD FOR THOUGHT

Today's word is "PERFORACIÓN"
And it means "piercing (in noun form)".

"Tiene una perforacion en la nariz" = "He has a nose piercing"

Cute memory from the vast field of bad ones..

2007-08-02T00:08:00.000-05:00

Don't ask how this ever popped into my head..

As a child, I didn't have the happiest of all childhoods..or even anywhere near a conventional family life. To cut straight through all the red tape and go straight to the relevant aspect of my chilhood of this post, I'll say that I was allowed to watch violent action and horror movies at a tender, single digit age as a kid. No questions asked. And as odd as it may seem for a 6 year old to be obsessed with horror movies and NOT be scared or need a night light afterwards, It truly was that way with moi. AND I did not grow up to be a serial killer (shhhh....quiet brain you've said too much). Also, I grew up speaking nothing but Spanish and knew English because of TV. So I didn't have a vast knowledge of the use of the language as a normal kid would have. It's hard enough for an immigrant to fully understand the English language and how its used so imagine me at a tender age to be able to comprehend clichés and figurative speech.

So I remember as a young kid, when this movie came out

"Friday The 13th Part VI: Jason Lives"
1986

I was naive and remember I wanted to see it...but I thought because of the movie poster and subsequent video cover, Jason's name was "Jason Lives". I didn't understand it exactly and didn't register that it was a catchphrase for the movie. I saw the tombstone and for a long time I referred to Jason as "Jason Lives". LOL!! I guess I never paid enough attention to the movies to hear everyone call him Jason Voorhees (his actual name).

Oh lord. I thought it was a cute kid moment. Very few times does a nice memory that makes me smile emerge from the dark pit of my vast mind.

Toodles!!

SPANISH WORD FOOD FOR THOUGHT

Today's word is "AFINACIÓN".
And it means "tune up, calibration"

"The car needs a tune up" = "El coche necesita una afinación"

Flavored Water

2007-07-30T22:25:00.001-05:00

I think the stupidest oxymoronic product in the market right now is FLAVORED WATER.

Last time I checked, if water had flavor it was a DRINK, not water. It's retarded, if you want to drink water with taste, have a soft drink. When one wants to drink water, you drink PLAIN OLE WATER. It ceases to be "plain ole water" if it has "flavor".

Am I the only one out there who sees past this madness?! I mean if you want water with JUST a smidge of flavour, can't you just water down your kool-aid?? In the end that's all it tastes like...soda that had too much ice and now has thawed out.

SPANISH WORD FOOD FOR THOUGHT

Today's word is "COTIDIANO"
And it means "common, typical of every day ."

"Viene de familia cotidiana" = "He comes from a common, typical family"

The obligatory "Simpsons Movie" thread

2007-07-29T22:58:00.000-05:00

Alright, let me just get it out of the way...

It was GREAT!!!! I loved it, I really did. It wasn't anything mould-breaking or revolutionary for the series but it certainly was a great 87 minute episode. For those interested in seeing it I won't spoil any details but I really liked it.

The real stars of this movie were the Simpsons and not guest stars or wacky situations outside of Springfield like the show pretty much has gone to in the last 10 years. I think this movie restored my faith in the Simpsons and the comedy style revolved the family's quirks, random humour and gags. But on that note, I was also looking forward to seeing some of my favourite non-family characters get some shining time. I mean there were moments but they didn't have key roles to the plot. But nonetheless it proved the Simpsons themselves are the real stars of the show and why it's been on the air for almost 20 years.

:D I'm excited. And I'm sure a sequel is inevitable.

And in the spirit of the moment..

SPANISH WORD FOOD FOR THOUGHT

Today's word is "ASOMBRADO"
And it means "astonished, amazed"

"Me quede asombrado al salir del cine!" = "I remained astonished as I left the movie theater!"

Geezers in Freezers

2007-07-26T21:32:00.001-05:00

I swear this past week my mind has been racing with different topics that I felt passionate about that I wanted to elaborate on this blog....but everytime I finally got to sitting down, my mind would turn blank. I guess I missed the train of discussion. Don't worry, I'll get more inspiration, the pussy may be dry but it still works :D

So to start things, I'd like to say I am super geeked for tommorrow...THE SIMPSON MOVIE FINALLY PREMIERES!!

I honestly was NOT excited at all about this movie, I have known about it since 2 years ago. The show has been on a perpetual slope and has flattlined in quality this decade. That's how long its been on the air for that I have to refer to it as this decade hee hee hee. So it's not like I was expecting anything extraordinary to make me get excited. I mean it's not like the Simpsons have been off the air for me to miss them. BUT...I saw the previews of it earlier this year and it was amazed at how really funny it seemed! It reminded me of the Simpsons in their glory days where their humour was random, unexpected but clean and just made you laugh. Like a modern Tex Avery cartoon (y'all know how much I love him). So tomorrow I will finally get to see it! yay!

I was a dork and went to the ONLY 7-11 turned "Kwik-E Mart" which is in the south side. My brother and I went a couple weeks back. It was awesome in a humungous dork way. Here I am with "Frostillicus". You Simpsons geeks will know what I'm talking about it.

So yes kiddies, I promise more to come! Thank you for reading. Toodles!

SPANISH WORD FOOD FOR THOUGHT

Today's word is "ACCIONISTA"
And it means "Shareholder/stockholder".

"Mi padre fue accionista de la empresa Pepsi-Cola = My father was a shareholder of Pepsi-Cola corporation"

Sidenote: In case you don't know...the Spanish word for "stock (as in a company" is "acciones" which literally means actions. So to have stock in a company in Spanish, you would say "tengo acciones en esta empresa".

Christian boy

2007-07-11T16:07:00.000-05:00

I used to be such a nice little Christian boy and so naive when I was little. It's amazing how deep a religion can brainwash a kid. They really do teach you to tolerate others ONLY if they accept Christ as their saviour. So in other words every other religion is hedonistic and only with Christ can you be saved.

So silly. I remember as a kid, someone was lying about something once, I forget who..and I naively said "have him swear unto Christ, no one can lie to him!".

Oh lord! Now please don't get me wrong, I still have a huge faith in God. But this organized religion that I grew up with, Catholicism, really is wrong and so far away from God that it's not even funny. They are so caught up in their own beliefs that they cease to see God but rather their church..and isn't that hypocritical? Thou shalt not have any other God's before me..what do you call worshiping a church and its priest and their decisions on what you should have an opinion on?

Anywho, just had to share :)

SPANISH WORD FOOD FOR THOUGHT

Today's word is
"SINDICATO"

And it means "worker's union"

"Tenemos un sindicato muy eficiente" = "We have a very efficient (worker's) union"

Running with the devil...

2007-07-11T00:50:00.000-05:00

So it finally cooled off today! My god I was dying from all this heat? Can't summer keep it under 70 degrees?!?! Ugh. I got around to going for a nice long run today...running from where I live to the next mile and then running back. It felt great!! So I celebrated with a glass of zinfandel and a cigarrette. :)

I used to run alot more often, but since I've moved 3 times in 3 years it gets hard to find a nice route to run to. And certain parts of my neighborhood are rather iffy so I try to avoid em. And the other thing is that I run at night as I hate the sun and moreso during summer. Ugh...

I decided to implement a new topic for my blog. It's called "SPANISH WORD FOR FOOD FOR THOUGHT". Since I make it my mission to help anyone learning Spanish or my fellow Latinoes better their grammar and vocabulary, I will now insert a word that's common and may not be used on an every day basis...so now you will have registered to how to say it in Spanish :) You may or may not know it or may not know in what context it belongs, but hopefully you can learn something from me :)

Today's word is:
"CURRICULO".

And it means "Resumé".

"Envié mi curriculo a recursos humanos" = I sent my resumé to Human Resources"

:)

Toodles my children! Til next time stay tuned

Wrap my snatch?!

2007-07-09T02:39:00.001-05:00

Howdy folks!

Pues ahora si la regué! 2 weeks with no updates! I am so thankful for you guys for still checking here. I have no words. But I've been living, fighting off this nasty ass heat we've been having for the last week. Ugh! I hate hate hate it!

So other than that, I just HAD to share a little funny anecdote. I was at a McDonalds (it was late and nothing else was open) and ordered a salad and a snack wrap.....but instead of calling it that I called it a "snatch wrap".

OMG!! I was so shocked at my brain! But I was laughing and the cashier did too..lol! It's because as a joke I've called them snatch wraps that I think my brain has registered that to be their actual names! So to me not calling it a snatch wrap is foreign.

Funny.

New Year

2007-06-26T01:25:00.000-05:00

So this past weekend was very eventful. We finally moved to the new apartment, now its just a matter of picking up lotsa little things that eventually add up (3 trips and counting) but the hard part is over. For the most part it was an easy move though the movers broke my computer desk's arm so now I have to get that replaced. The wood was broken from the hinge so I dunno if I can drill it or fix it. In a way I see this as a new year because from this point I only see upsides and changes, both here and personal and career wise.

Also, this weekend was pride. I am going to say this honestly and openly because I use this tool to vent and communicate my happenings to you all. I had a LOUSY time at Pride. It was a combination of things with one incident making it all boil.

First off, I was worried because, as you all know, I am currently not working full time and receiving benefits from the State. So I didn't get my check which I was expecting and its still not here! I don't know if it's the new address or what but I haven't panicked yet, this isn't the first time there's been a delay in the mail. I was already downtrodden in my mood about me not having money for pride so, it was hard. Then that morning was a disaster because I haven't unpacked everything and the apartment is still full of boxes. I had an outfit layed out that I was going to wear and at the last minute I LOST it! Unbelievable as it may sound its true! So i had to wear something all wrinkled and plain that I found in a hamper and went off, with my mood already on the borderline of wanting to stay home.

And then the pinnacle. My bf for whatever reason made his Pride plans around his straight girl co-worker who I honestly have not hung around with very often and acts like a typical girl, attention deficient, self centered and constantly talking about nonsense mostly about herself. So it's safe to say that although I don't know her very well, she irks me at times. Keep that in mind for what I am about to say.

So on the way to pride she asked about my job hunt. Now of course with this situation I really don't tend to talk about it as I spend enough time worrying about it on my own I don't need to make it a topic of conversation at social gatherings. Unless of course it's a networking even to which of course this was not. I said it was going and she said "Go work at McDonald's". I just ignored that one and said "yeah ok whatever" to which she replied "Since when do you have principles"?

Do you all see where this is headed? Yes, at this point, still keeping quiet and just kinda brushing it off, I started to think "who the fuck does she think I am, her best friend??". THEN came the next incident, I was commenting on how its always my stroke of luck that when drunk I always have the urge to go #2! Lol, I know this is awful but its happened like 5 times. And I hadn't gone that day so I was worried it would occur again. So then she goes ahead and says another comment..."Just do what all the unemployed people do and take a dump behind a dumpster". At this point I really didn't care for that and I said "fuck you" and looked away, still trying to avoid a full on confrontation.

And now here is where it got ugly. I have no idea what was wrong with this stupid bitch thinking that she could talk that way or comment on me in that matter, but she said "Awww..Tower closed and now you can't find a job". OMG, that's when I really got pissed and told her that she's really out of line and that's not cool. It's none of her business as to how I get payed and she had no right to make cracks like that. And in any case, why should I offer you any explanations about my life, who the fuck are you to feel as if you have some sort of right to tell anyone what to do?

WHO the fuck do you think you are? You don't know me like that and I really don't understand the need for this. I have never even commented on this persons work or personal life, EVER, and suddenly she feels she has the right to make comments like this? I was so angry and annoyed.

Surely this sounds like unnecessary drama for me on a day where its supposed to be for me, a gay guy with my boyfriend. And did he say something to HIS friend about this. NO! That's the part that really surprised me. And as silly as it may sound, I did not say anything in the respect to my boyfriend about this because I naively wanted him to have a good time. I figured he deserved it. I mean if I were to invite one of my Friends or co-workers and he made a comment about my boyfriend out of a personal topic like that, rest assured I would immediately take action and say "Dude, not cool at all. Do not disrespect my bf like that. I'm not going to make him uncomfortable, I think you better leave". That never happened. But after the initial altercation, this stupid bitch at first tried to brush it off as if me being upset was no big deal with "Oh let's squash it and move on" to which I responded with a FUCK YOU OK?. She then tried to hug me to which I pushed her away, got in her face and told her to get away from me, that she and I are done and not come near me.

Now for those who know me personally, I know that i have my history of off-colour remarks at times but can someone honestly come up and tell me that I said things of this nature when not necessarily knowing them on a friend-to-friend basis? I really don't even make cracks like this to my good friends, let alone from someone who is merely an acquaintance of my boyfriend. I could never see myself saying anything this INSENSITIVE to anyone that I either met not too long ago or don't know as well.

So all throughout pride, I tried my best to have a good time and let my bf have one as well but it really wasn't working. I guess people must have thought I was already wasted as I was quiet and uninspired but I tried. I'm letting all this go and hopefully I will get over the hurt of my love of my life allowing one of his friends to treat me like that on our day of celebration. I will hopefully get over the fact that he doesn't see the big picture and will probably still allow this friend at our functions. I will hopefully get over the fact he didn't and hasn't stuck up for me as I would for him in this kind of occurence. I will hopefully get over the disappointment but as of now, I'm not there yet. All I know is that this is a reminder of the kind of people I will deal with even though I ever expected to be subjected to this in this manner and at MY social function by one of my bf's guests.

Thank you all for reading and should the guilty party find this post, rest assured that I have now a full reason to spit in your face. I hope someday you'll reflect and study what you say and who you say it to because you got off easy with me. Maybe one day you can buy a brain and tact and realize who you can say things to and in what matter.

The dark side of being too nice all the time

2007-06-21T04:45:00.000-05:00

You know, there's people who have such an affable personality that always seem to shine and smile all the time. I'm sure like every human person, these people have their bad days and once they're not smiling, people think something's wrong. So the bad side of being nice all the time is that apparently you're not allowed to have bad days. So it sucks being nice all the time.

......to those who know me personally, you're probably laughing by now right? well TO HELL WITH YA! :) OK, the reason why I'm writing this is because I actually suffer from the opposite aura. People think I'm MEAN! I really don't get it. Perhaps it's the fact that when I first meet people and/or learning new tasks, I never smile. I'm not exactly sure why because believe me, I'm not cold or have no sense of humour. I just seem to give off this aura of bitchiness which I can honestly say is not entirely true. What person isn't happy and friendly yet at the same time has some inner bitch in them that comes out when needed?

So the problem with me is..days when I actually FEEL like smiling..people act like something is wrong with me! It's funny even people who I don't even normally talk to on an every day basis, say co-workers or even a neighbor, make comments when you smile at them. "You're in a good mood today". "Wow, you seem happy for a change!". HOW RUDE! I can be happy and not smile you know! I don't need to prance around like Julie Andrews to be a happy guy!

Lol. But the funniest aspect of all this, I've been told by a few people who I have met at social gatherings, "You're so much nicer when you're drunk". LOL!!!! That alone made my mood much better. It's so funny. I don't think there is anything wrong with my personality. I've always thought of myself as approachable and reasonable. I never lose my temper over stupid things and as a matter of fact it takes a lot for me to panic about something. Generally I'm patient and calculative so I don't ever find a need for hostility, Yet people seem to think I am mean. Oh well.

So I guess the dark side of not being overtly and obviously nice is not being allowed to feel happy and smile once in a while.

Insomnia is a disease

2007-06-19T15:08:00.000-05:00

At least it is for me..:(

Ever since as far as I could remember, I have suffered from insomnia. It actually stemmed from 2 other issues that I will discuss eventually on another post but still, since my "tweens" I've had this. All throughout high school I found it hard to sleep sometimes. I'd sleep one day for 14 hours and then another day I would not sleep at all. I hate it. I actually remember having issues in which I thought in the middle of the night someone was going to come through my window so I couldn't sleep. Insane I know, it's a miracle I made it out of that one with no therapy.

Recently I was doing good at keeping my sleep balanced but I went out last week and it fucked me up. So I was up all night today, uuuuugh. That's it, tonight me and Mr. Nyquil are having a night together.

Heads down, thumbs up, time to play..

2007-06-16T14:38:00.000-05:00

..7 up!

Omg, I had forgotten about this childhood game! We used to play this in school. You'd pick 7 kids and everyone else had to do as the title suggests. Then those 7 kids would touch someone's thumb and when done you had to guess which one did it. If you got it right, u switched spots.

Omg..the things I randomly remember. Most of my childhood is being repressed with licquor and ciggarrettes *looks around the room*

:)

True Colours Tour

2007-06-13T14:22:00.000-05:00

So yesterday was Chicago's pit stop for the Cyndi Lauper headlined TRUE COLORS TOUR

It's a benefit concert for gays and all the proceeds go to fight for gay rights or something.

I would have gone had I had more money and more time to do so. But we're moving and can't really spend anything. I don't have expendible income right now, it's all hand to mouth. But what makes me so sad about this tour is that she sang "Hole In My Heart", " When You Were Mine" and "Goonies". :( I would have loved to have seen that. "Hole In My Heart" was a fun song from her floptastic movie "Vibes" of 1988.

Oh well, maybe next time.

However, I'll give a shoutout to my friend James who loves Cyndi Lauper 100x more than I do so you can imagine how interesting the obsession can be. :) He's awesome though and he managed to make the trip from Ohio to come see her here in Chicago so I did get something out of this True Colours shit. We met years ago at another Cyndi event 5 years ago and have kept touch ever since. It was nice hanging out with you! It was hella fun! Next time I'll be a lady :D

Toodles!

No señor!

2007-06-11T17:37:00.000-05:00

hi sweeties!! I've been busy as we're moving out of here in 2 weeks so I haven't had time to correllate all my thoughts onto text format. I promise a more detailed post soon! thank you all so much for checking this blog for updates! Your diva appreciates the love!

In the meantime, I leave you all with this. It's an interesting biography (in Spanish) of Maria Elena Velasco, better known as "La India Maria".

Ever wonder what they be sayin' on the streefs?

2007-05-29T01:28:00.000-05:00

Now's your chance!

http://www.urbandictionary.com/

Omg, such a great site! I'm sure its updated daily, lol! It has slang from all over the world, including Spanish!!

To put it to the test, I decided to look up one of my favourite Mexican phrases.."Hijo de la chingada!!"

"1. Hijo de La Chingada
27 up, 2 down
a fucking bastard, a motherfucker. About the worst thing you can call someone in Spanish, especially in Mexico.

¡voy a matarte, hijo de la chingada!"

I LOVE it! Bookmark this site guys, you may need it in the future for entertainment purposes

"Spanish" Actress who CAN indeed sing!

2007-05-25T23:57:00.000-05:00

It's no secret in Latin America or even Spain that every actor tries to sing and every singer tries to act. It's just a common marriage of the "arts" in these territories. Very few of them actually manage to get away with it and reveal amazing talents! Here is a list of the few whom I adore and decided to share and discuss for your entertainment. The songs here are on rapidshare format so these links won't expire.

Alejandra Avalos

She started out acting in the mid 80's and recorded her first album in 1989. Even though not alot of people may remember her singing career or even knew of it, she has a few songs that she's known for by music lovers (and queens). You all may know her from her telenovelas "Tenias Que Ser Tu", "Soñadoras" or most recently "Apuesta Por Un Amor".

Take a listen!
Amor Fasciname - Alejandra Avalos

Laura Flores

I always thought Laura was ugly, has a weird face and have never been a fan of her telenovelas. But she does possess a decent and quite lovely singing voice. She's no Mariah Carey but she's somewhere between Pandora and Tatiana. I like that she's kept her career going despite the fact the last known "hit" for her was the theme song to her very popular telenovela "El Alma No Tiene Color". The song I am sharing was written by Joan Sebastian.

Take a listen!
Desamor - Laura Flores

Alicia Machado

Alright, well she didn't exactly start off as an "actress" per se, but this Venezuelan lovely was Miss Universe 1997 and became famous after gaining 30lbs shortly after her coronation and Donald Trump threatened to take away her crown if she didn't lose those pounds. The feminists had plenty of scraps to feed off with this story. She then became an actress and finally recorded her only album (so far) in 2004. I loved it!! She has a husky voice but very feminine. Quite powerful. She's somewhere between Sheryl Crow and Maria Conchita Alonso, whom she is frequently compared to.

Take a listen!
Fuiste Tu El Primero - Alicia Machado

Maria Conchita Alonso

Maria Conchita! You all may remember her as a B-actress in Hollywood films, but she started off in music rather early in the early 80's with her Disco project Ambar (with future pop star Rudy La Scala). She recorded her debut album in 1982 and slowly started having a series of classic hits that to this day are played on Spanish radio. She has a lovely deep and raspy voice, reminiscent of Bonnie Tyler. I love it! This song I am sharing is my favourite from her 1985 album "O Ella O Yo"

Take a listen!
Ciao Goodbye - Maria Conchita Alonso

Raquel Olmedo

Omg, this is the EPITOME of the actress who has widely uknown singing skills! Such a great singer with her own style. She had some hits in the late 70's and has pretty much given up on her singing career. You all may remember her as the villain in "Barrera De Amor" or in "Esmeralda" and "Piel De Otoño". She's a great actress with a distinctive voice and a lovely voice!

Take a listen!
He Dejado Todo Por Ti - Raquel Olmedo

Chantal Andere

Daughter of legend Jacqueline Andere, even though she did not inherit her mother's good looks (she was gorgeous when young), she certainly has another talent..SINGING! Chantal came and went as a singer in the 90's and didn't really have any hits. Such a shame, she has quite a nice voice. She has since focused on telenovelas and acting, most of the time playing villains. She acted with the aforementioned Raquel Olmedo on "Barrera De Amor" as well. Check out this rare and lovely ballad.

Take a listen!
Contigo El Amor Es Mucho Mas - Chantal Andere

Rocío Banquells

So this may be one of the cases where you didn't know she acted or simply don't know her at all! The daughter of the late Mexican legend Rafael Banquells (whom also fathered Sylvia Pasquel). She began her career as a young actress and excelled at playing villains, most notably on the now classic telenovela "Los Ricos También Lloran" with Veronica Castro. But she didn't release a record until 1981 and achieved her real first hit in 1985. She has an AMAZING voice and one of the strongest I've heard in Mexican pop. I find it amazing how singing was her second career, she obviously was born with talent. You may also know her from the Spanish version of "Beauty and The Beast". She sang the duet with Mijares. The song I am sharing is a lovely cover of "It Must Have Been Love" by Roxette

Take a listen!
Pudo Ser Amor (It Must Have Been Love) - Rocio Banquells

And of course...I can't do a post about Spanish actresses who can sing without talking about the obvious..the lovely, my favourite female singer and quite the artist..

Daniela Romo

You may only know her as a singer or you may only know her as an actress. But this talented woman started off her career very early in the late 70's doing telenovelas and a few theatre productions. She has since capped off an amazing career balancing out acting and singing on stage, on film and on television. She is incredible.

She is currently starring in her own production of the musical "Victor Victoria". The song I am including is taken from that musical! I hope you enjoy it! It's proof that Daniela Romo is still on top of her game.

Vivo Entre Las Sombras - Daniela Romo (from the Mexican production of "Victor Victoria")

I hope you enjoyed my list children. Please comment on what you have heard here! Ta ta and thank you all for reading!

Novedades

2007-05-21T23:48:00.000-05:00

Que onda mi publico??

I've missed you all. I've been in a weird state lately. I've been dealing with alot of anxieties and panic attacks and have had trouble dealing. I still feel funny about leaving the house and trying to slowly move on.

Today I had a really good job interview at Lincoln Park Hospital for a 2nd shift position. It was quite the challenge to leave the house for the hour that I was gone but I did it. I don't know how I'll be if I get this job, even though I would start at 4:00PM. I guess I'll just have to stop worrying or die trying.

On another (unimportant) note, "Rosa Salvaje", the reruns they show of the 1987 telenovela on Telefutura at 7AM, is ending next tuesday the 29th :(. It's been getting real good :). But unfortunately, the telenovela taking its spot is not an 80's classic like this one, but rather a newer one. "Amar Otra Vez" starring Irán Castillo and Valentino "Empapa Chochas" Lanús. Oh well. Anyone seen this and if so, is it good??

Here's the intro. The song is "Tu Fotografia" by Gloria Estefan

Well, that's it for me kiddies. Thank u for reading, hasta la proxima vez, les quiero.

A Day of Scares

2007-05-16T03:21:00.000-05:00

So on Monday afternoon, at around 4:00PM, I was home and chilling and about to take Chus (my dog) out for a walk when something scary happened: Someone broke into our apartment thinking no one was home!

It was in fact really scary and confusing at the same time. I was in the kitchen with my stereo on listening to Angelfish (Shirley Manson's first band) making coffee. I wouldn't even have heard had Chus not ran to the front door arising from his usual routine of daytime slumber. When I arrived there, I heard three huge thuds at the door, then it slammed open and some bald cholo with a crowbar wearing a brown t-shirt and jean shorts came in. He saw me and honestly I don't remember if I said anything or not but he ran away immediately. I didn't know how to react as I didn't know what the situation was. Was he alone, did he have a weapon? Was he going to attack me?

My first instinct was to protect Chus and when he ran, I didn't know if he was alone and others were going to come so I tried my best to secure the door and run to the phone to call 9-1-1.

So now, we have a new set of 2 locks for our inner front door and a new lock to tide us over until we get a whole new door installed on Saturday. But I'd be lying if I said I wasn't terrified to leave the house.

It's really funny how things work out. Since it was Mother's Day, I was supposed to go visit my mother on Monday. She was to call me in the morning to let me know if she was going to be available and she never did so I never went. So I was almost not going to be home. I don't even have the strenth to imagine what would have happened had I not been home...I can't. Everything happens for a reason though. God didn't want me to go anywhere.

I actually didn't go to work today and was called by the agency for an assignment. I don't feel comfortable leaving Chus all alone all day right now and will probably stay here all week. I'd like to think this is only a temporary panic because I won't be able to live with fear like this. I'm afraid to leave the house and leaving him all alone. What if they either steal him or in the attempt to burglarize do something awful to him to control him....God, I was a wreck after all that I didn't even want to think of all the thousands of "what if's" that came to mind.. If I didn't have Chus I honestly wouldn't even be 1/4 as scared as I am. Stuff and material possesions are just things, Chus is a part of my life as important to me as breathing. I can't imagine him not being with us.

Crazy. This is the first time ever something like this has happened to me. I'm just glad nothing serious happened and what are the odds the idiot will try to do this again? I hope since he was I was home at 4:00PM on a weekday he will assume I'll be here all the time.

I'm scared. Hug me.

Spring break!

2007-05-08T10:00:00.000-05:00

So I was off for one whole week involuntarily. My one project of 3 weeks ended, then I didn't have anything new. And I got a call about the same place and I'm back today for at least 2 more days :). Joy! 2 more days of pay! hopefully I'll get something more prolonged now.

At my current position, the reason why my project ended was because they ended up hiring a full-time receptionist. But like I thought, they wanted someone with real estate background to assist the agents, which I obviously don't have. But its not like I can't learn. I'd like to think I was doing a good job with my ignorance of the field. I mean why else would they have wanted me back as a temp?

Anywho, that's what I'm doing today. I hardly slept last night. In fact I don't even think I did at all. I'm exhaused but I will make it work.

Drinking

2007-05-06T19:39:00.000-05:00

I'm never drinking again!! Ugh...

Last night I went out, oblivious of the fact it was Cinco De Mayo. I got to Boystown and was wondering why everyone looked like Huarachín y Huarachón. Then it hit me. Such a bad Mexican-American I am (as its only a big deal to pochos).

Anywho, I drank 5 Vodka gimlets that were super strong and woke up feeling and looking like death. I'm never never drinking again! I had fun though, I didn't even think I was that drunk but man oh man did I feel the vodka's wrath today. When I got my stomach to calm down, I scarfed down a greasy double cheeseburger and fries and felt much better.

Flash forward to pride 2007 when I'm repeating it all over again. lol

Ay, ay, ay..cómo me duele!

2007-05-03T15:04:00.000-05:00

My left foot hurts!!

I went running on Tuesday night, and yesterday sometime in the afternoon. I started feeling a pain on my left foot that just got worst and worst. I don't think I sprained my ankle, as that's not what hurts. It's the middle part of it where the pain is coming.

Today I feel a tad better but still in pain. I was going to go out and do stuff but I can't now.

If a fire starts to burn, there's a lesson u must learn..

2007-04-30T10:10:00.000-05:00

*Something something* then you'll see. You'll avoid catastrophe!

D'oh! I forgot the most important part!

Sorry, another Homer Simpson moment

Lol...I just had a funny moment. It's my last day at my work assignment from the temp agency. I was in the bathroom on the toilet taking a shit when all of a sudden the fire alarm and the lights start blinking! Oh shit! At first I thought I pressed something.

This is a big building where condo's will be built, there is only one office here so about 5 peeps were here. It seemed odd they would have a fire drill. Lol!! So I quickly wiped and ran downstairs with everyone else (who were also uninformed).

So fucking funny!! At least it woke me up from this lazy monday morning!

Chicas de hoy..tu du du, tu du du!

2007-04-26T10:42:00.000-05:00

I finally had an off-day yesterday! I've been on the run since last week. So I did some errands, went to pick up my check (for 5 whole days, woo hoo!) and then went to La Villita to indulge my vice, CD shopping. I hadn't been to "Viva La Musica" (excellent record store) in so long.

I didn't find anything interesting, I found a misleading Isela Vega CD (she was a slutty actress in the 70's). It was misleading because she's topless on the cover yet the album is really boring early 70's fluff and she hardly even sings on it.

BUT...I did find out something interesting! From May 3-6, there is a Cinco De Mayo festival at the Hawthorne Race Course featuring lotsa of Regional Mexican acts..and one interesting addition...TATIANA!

Oh my god!! I so want to go! I know she's all kiddie now but still! She will be doing her show and an autograph session. I'm tempted! I don't even know what day of the festival she will be on. I've loved Tatiana for years now, she was my teen queen. She was so pretty. I'd love to get a pic with her. She's still hella pretty.

Oh no...Imagine my faggy ass jamming along to "pinpon es un muneco...".

-UPDATE-

I found out when she will be there!!

Her autograph session will be on Saturday, May 5th at 5:00PM and the show on Sunday, May 6th at 7:00PM.

Lol!!!! I am so going to go!!

"Cinco de Mayo in Cicero! (Event)The Town of Cicero invites you to celebrate 5 de Mayo in Cicero. Sponsored by Cicero Mexican Cultural Committee, Hawthorne Park District, Morton College and Clyde Park District. Cico de Mayo President's Cup 2007 - Soccer Tournament Leagues: C.L.A.S.A. (Chicago) Don Bosco (Chicago) Aurora Youth Soccer The Berwyn Blazers Clyde Park District (Cicero) Cicero Atlas/Hawthorne Park Thursday, May 3 Morton College Soccer Field - Central & Pershing Rd. 6-9 p.m. Friday, May 4 "Antonio Carbajal" Soccer Field - 32nd & Central - 7-11 p.m. Sat., May 5 Championship Game Arturo Carbajal Soccer Field - 4 p.m. Free Entrance to All Events! Carnival & Festival Thursday, May 3 5-10 p.m. Friday, May 4 5-10 p.m. Sat., May 5 12-10 p.m. Sun., May 6 12-10 p.m. Sportman's Lot 34th & Laramie Ave. Food & Music Town of Cicero 34th Street & Laramie Avenue Cicero, IL (708) 257-8593 "

Thank U :)

2007-04-23T09:42:00.000-05:00

Thank you all for the kind wishes, phone calls and Myspace messages I got on Saturday. I had a great birthday :) Much love to y'alls!

So yes, I didn't plan anything on my birthday, all I know is I wanted a drink. So me and the missus went down to our new favourite Mexican restaurant "Don Chema's" right by where we live, in the middle of Milwaukee and Fullerton on California. They have the most juiciest carne asada I've tasted in the north side. Yumm. We never went before because it was always never busy and well we assumed it wasn't good. Boy were we wrong! The best of all is...a large Margarita is only 5.00!!! :)

So we started off there, then I was tipsy and wanted to dance :). We initially thought El Kallejon but it's just so hard to get there if you don't want to drink and drive. To those who don't know this place, it's what "Lola's" used to be..a gay latino bar where they have drag shows by Latina transexuals who lip-sync hits. The only saviour in that troupe is their leader, Veronica Zaid, who is the only proffesional. She actually takes effort in emulating the movements and look of the artist.

But we eneded up going to Crew, which is nothing special but still, as long as I had a drink. I couldn't stay up that late anyway, I work all through the weekends, luckily I start at 11 on Sat-Sun.

Speaking of work...my project ends exactly next week, so who knows if I will have a job, if they end up hiring me here (I have to contact the real estate company as they do the hiring) or if I go back on the temp list. Either way, it was fun these last 2 weeks so far of consistent work, I missed it :). Not to mention the paycheck.

So thank u kiddies again for remembering me and coming back to check this. Messah loves u all.

Updates updates!!

2007-04-19T12:17:00.000-05:00

So so sorry for no updates! I've been so busy lately!

So, ever since last week or so, I have been working for an indefenite period project set up through the temp agency I've been going through. It's nice, it's a condominium project site and my job is reception and welcoming people who come in. The office itself is a model of what it will look like (gorgeous, can never afford) on North lakeview.

Its nothing permanent though and I'm not sure how long I'll be here as I'm only confirmed to the end of this weekend. That's the thing too is that the weekends are crazy and have to work them, so I will be working this weekend which all of you should know is my 25th Birthday weekend :)

I tend to not celebrate my birthday anyway so it's not a big deal. Maybe I'll get lucky and get a quarter life crisis :). Nah, it'll never happen for me. I'm too conscious living in the now to even worry about what I will do with my other 3/4 left of my life. Besides, according to some I'm not living a real life and wasting my time working meaningless jobs no? Or so I'm told, lol. I have a one finger answer to that statement anyway.

So yes kiddies, life's been moving for me, even if only for a minute. Thank you all so much for checking here :). I've missed my rants!

Egg Day.

2007-04-09T23:01:00.000-05:00

Howdy folks! Happy Easter!

It's been a busy week for me at least. I still haven't found a job but I worked for a few hours this week through the temp agency. It was fun :) I've just been keeping busy and what not.

Just wanted to drop by and tell you all I'm OK and expect more literal inspirations soon here! Love to you all and one another

Peace

Omg, finally on DVD!

2007-04-02T03:22:00.000-05:00

June 5, 2007

Finally! the REALEST classic of Mexican soap operas (telenovelas). Finally Televisa Home Video will live up to its name! Even though I am sure it won't have the original soundtrack as they are cheap and don't want to pay the licensing fees and what not (it happened with "Cuna De Lobos"), it's still great that this classic is coming out! I finally get to see it. This was the original "Maria La Del Barrio", it was a remake of this..just like how "Maria Mercedes" was a version of "Rosa Salvaje". Thalia novelas were all rehashes of the stories that Veronica Castro had done. I'm excited!

Where's my cookie?

2007-04-02T02:54:00.000-05:00

On saturday night, March 31, I got a phone call from a friend who I haven't hung out with for a while. She told me she had extra tickets to Belanova's concert at the Congress Theater that were going to go to waste. I'm not exactly a Belanova fan, casual admirer of their songs at best, but I decided to go to mainly see my friend.

My god, the show was awful! I've already seen their show before when they did a free concert at the Green Dolphin when they were promoting their USA debut CD "Dulce Beat". Their music is disco-ish pop songs and can be quite catchy and fun..yet their show was uninspired, repetitive and dull. The lead singer did the same tired dance movements for EVERY song and the show never picked up. And how many times do "electronic" acts have to cover "I Feel Love"? Donna Summer must be rolling in her riches with that song!

I remember asking my bf (who actually payed to see this show with his friends) why they were bothering to see them again as they were really dull. I guess now I deserve my cookie for being right eh?

I've affectionately renamed them Belaboring. Which is too bad. This is the case where an artist is much more better on record than live. I'll add them to my list right with Daniela Mercury, Tori Amos (shut up), Michelle Branch and Alejandra Guzman.

Dónde estas, Camila?

2007-03-30T17:05:00.000-05:00

In case any of you were interested, Telefutura will begin rerunning "Camila", the 1999 return to (and so far last) telenovelas for Bibi Gaytan!

I missed this one the first time around, at that point I was very dissatached from the world and angry and didn't really watch TV and stuff. But now that I'm back on track I'm going to watch! Bibi is hot and loved her in "Dos Mujeres Un Camino". U guys may remember that I met her as well and my BF insists this novela is really good

So, just thought I would inform! It will re-air starting monday April 2, 2007 at 3:00 P.M Central/4:00PM Eastern. Or for you west coasters...4:00PM Pacific/5:00PM Mt. This novela apparently is a remake of Lucía Méndez's breakout role "Viviana" that was an international hit.

You're fucking cheating on me right?

2007-03-30T15:02:00.000-05:00

Have you ever had a realistic dream? One you were so sure of it happened when you wake up? lol. The other night, I had a very detailed dream that me and my lifer were at some outdoor event and he went off to go get something. So then a long time later he's still not there! So I go back to my car (in my dream I had one lol) and call him on his cell. I ask him where he is, I'm here and been waiting for a long time. So he tells me "I had to meet up with someone that lives by the airport". Immediately all these red flags came up, who? why did you have to go just now? Couldn't you tell me? But he was being short on details!

Getting angrier and angrier by his lack of details and apathy, I asked him "You're fucking cheating on me right?". So which he says "maybe", all coy. Ugh! I grew so mad, I told him "all you have to do is tell me, you didn't have to play these games. So just tell me if you are and I'll leave you alone". "Maybe". UGH!

So then I woke up, so mad! I told him about this and I was angry, lol!

Raquel Olmedo on Wikipedia.org

2007-03-28T00:07:00.000-05:00

Tonight I was inspired and figured my diva (re)discovery of 2006 deserved a page on Wikipedia.org. So I went ahead and made one. You guys may remember my post on this woman. It didn't take me a long time, I stole the template from someone else's entry and just changed the content.

Take a look.
http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Raquel_Olmedo

I believe in Angels

2007-03-26T03:38:00.000-05:00

Ugh, disgusting warm weather we have had all weekend! Here's hoping for more chill! We get enough warmth all year anyway.

Howdy folks! Hope you're all well. I can't exactly orate any venom today. I deal with what I deal and am still standing. No news from me which is good news. Just wanted to reach out to all my favourite people, the readers of this blog and wish you all a happy spring!

Let's Talk About Sex Baby

2007-03-20T23:21:00.000-05:00

A funny fact for me at least is that I've never in my life payed for condoms! Really. O.K. what's going through your mind right now about me?

Lol! Of course I've used them everytime I had sex (prior to my monogamy) but I always got them for free at clinics and sometimes even on the street! You know in BOystown they have those trucks and alot of times I'd be out on Friday nights I'd get them for free. Heeeey :) Mind u they really came in handy the first time I had sex. I remember because I was not planning on it and it sort of happened. But I'm pretty sure I was not going to be stupid enough to have sex without the condoms but still, it's a good thing I had them there. Then I had more money to drink :)

Nada mas?

2007-03-17T07:59:00.000-05:00

Hey folks.

So this week I actually worked! though my 2 week assigment was cut short and I was only needed for 2 days :( Oh well. still, it was nice to work and get out of the house for a few days! Too bad I couldn't keep going, I really needed the money. Hopefully I will get a new assignment this week.

Today is Chicagosexbox's birthday. Happy birthday girl! Though you may not realize it and the feelign may not be as mutual with you, I am really fond of you and I respect you for being who you are. Hope you have a great birthday outing!

Other than that, nothing else is new with me. I can't wait to get paid on wednesday for my 2 days of work! :) It will go nice with my unemployment check I will receive next week was well.

Diosito santo al fin..

2007-03-12T16:30:00.000-05:00

So on my last post, about the staffing agency...just like I assumed they sent someone else for the assignment since they couldn't get a hold of me. They blamed it on problems with their phone. What are the odds that they would have problems with their phone AND I would not be around to take their call right when I need work?

But on the bright side..I just got a call from them again saying they need someone else for the next 2 weeks! So I'll start tomorrow! Yay! It's not A JOB but its work! Who knows it may even lead to something else or other leads

I'm just glad I now will have something to do.

Bombs

2007-03-11T04:14:00.000-05:00

Hey hey.

Thanks for coming by! It just seems like quietness is what my mind feels so I've been feeling less inspired lately. But there's lotsa things to talk about.

I'm still unemployed however, I went to a temp agency last week and they called me on thursday about a possible 2 week position, to which of course I said yes! But I was told I would get a call the next day to see if I were to start on Monday or the following Monday. So since I don't have a cell phone anymore, I've been using my home phone. I had a job interview at 6:30PM (believe it or not) and was not home when she finally called at 10 mins to 6 that evening saying that yes indeed they need me for monday. So of course she wasn't there on the weekend so now I don't know if they are going to send someone else. I guess I can can her first thing monday morning but the position starts at 8:30AM and the employment agency doesn't open til 9. So what am I supposed to do, just go to where I was supposed to go? What if they sent someone else? Weird.

And alas..I got a call today from a dentists office saying they wanted to interview me on monday! So I dunno what to do..go to the interview or get this position! Choices choices. So I have a busy monday. I hope I get to work, I need this bad :( .

You guys may remember froma previous post that I mentioned that a good friend of the family was diagnosed with cancer? Well she went in to get the lump removed..all went well and not even a week later did they tell her she needs to go back because they found another one when doing a biopsy on her mammory glands. So of course she was freaking out. Now she had that removed and will undergo chemotherapy. We're all praying for her so that she may never have to see an O.R. again.

I've been less and less inspired to go out or call people. It's like they all ask me the same questions that I get tired of answering myself "Yeah I'm still looking...yep I've done this and that...I've also..etc etc" that I would just rather avoid it altogether. I'd rather not go to social functions or gatherings. Is that weird? Its not that I enjoy being alone but I'd rather stop having to verbalize my struggles when I hate having to deal with them myself.

I'll survive.

Shaky

2007-02-28T17:47:00.000-06:00

Hey hey.

So this week has been a lil' busy for me. I have had 3 job interviews since yesterday and so far nothing. I was late for one yesterday and convinced the guy to still see me later in the day. And then I met with a staffing agency (I've already gone to 3 and nothing) and that took lke 3 hours..wow! Today was at a Centro de Salud in like Douglas Park (gheeeto) but I still went and gave it my all.

I've noticed something though...I've never had a problem going to interviews or being nervous as I always feel that you should be yourself and if yourself is not good enough for the job, then its not for you. But my confidence has been shaken lately and now I can't help but feel like I really need to fight. So I tend to become really quiet when nervous which is not good.

It's like I feel that something is wrong with me. But then I have to remind myself that YOU MUST BE GOOD ENOUGH for this position as they would not have contacted you if they didn't feel you qualified. You are good enough and qualified and any company would gain an asset in you by hiring you. So I have to remind myself of this and feel like a tiger when going in :)

I looked so cute too..I wore nice clothes and did my hair super "nerdo" :).

But again..we'll see. I hope I gets a call soon!

Tissues & issues

2007-02-26T13:05:00.000-06:00

Hi guys! Thank u for checking back at this blog despite 2 weeks of no updates. I've been preoccupied with other stuff, I'm sorry. But I really did have the intention on spilling my little bitty soul on here.

So the biggest and scariest news came from my family yesterday. I haven't really been talking to anyone lately and my family was no exception. We haven't always had the typical relationship but still, I care and worry for them as I am sure they do too about me. I got a call from a really good friend of the family, who is almost like an aunt to me, and told me that she has been diagnosed with breast cancer. Apparently its in the early stages, she last had a mammogram 6 months ago and she went into surgery today. I'm certain everything will be OK but still, its scary.

It's amazing how life is. You ca be happy but then nature comes and does its deed. Hence why I really dislike holding grudges with people. There have been many things that have happened to me with my family but at the end of the day, they are my family and would like to die knowing that I did everything I could to be a decent person. So I am praying for her and that she make it. She has a 14 year old son and he needs his mother.

Otherwise, it's been the same current for me while I ride my raft on this journey. I suppose no news is good news eh?

Thanks again u guys for coming back. I appreciate ur presence especially now.

Beatriz Adriana on Mexican Reality Show

2007-02-12T13:51:00.000-06:00

So as some of you know, this blog isn't called what it is for no reason. I have a big love for Spanish music and the divas..the REAL divas of the past. They just don't make Spanish singers like they used to. I don't know where it went wrong, but back in the day all that mattered was your voice! Thats why no one like Dulce, Arianna or Ednita Nazario can make it today as its all superficial.

One of my favourite singers in this genre is the lovely and talented Beatriz Adriana

You guys may remember her, she was a prodigy in the 70's as a kid singer with a big voice and by the end of that decade was the Queen of Rancheras. She amassed hit after hit with songs that now are classics and are constantly covered by Durangense bands and countless other people, like "Esta Situacion", "La Reina Es El Rey", "Las Margaritas", "Tu Gaban", "Arrepentida y Sola", "Para Que No Te Vayas" to name a few.

She then in the 80's met the lead singer of a then-unknown band called Los Bukis. His name was Marco Antonio Solis and the two were married by 1982. It is well known that Los Bukis fame skyrocketed after their association with Beatriz, yet sadly nowadays they have eclipsed her in popularity. They were married for 10 years and together ammased even more hits.

I LOVE this woman. She is so versatile! She has sung rancheras and pop ballads..Look at her singing one of her pop hits "Arrepentida y sola"

She has a unique performing style that is often imitated. She was a real artist afterall. I think thats what I miss most about these oldie singers is that nowadays no one has their own style anymore. Everyone comes off a cookie cutter and dressed the same way. Back in the day everyone had their own look. I don't get it. Beatriz used to have this thing where she would roll her eyes like crazy. Look at this clip as an example. You'd think she was epileptic.

Now...she is part of a reality show on TV Azteca in Mexico. It is called "Disco De Oro". I haven't a clue what the show is about, but its interactive and you get to pick which songs u want to hear. I have to find out if they air it in the States. There's 12 other "has-been" contestants on this show too..from MDO, Karina, Manoella Torres (whom I adore as well) and the super sexy Charlie Masso from Menudo. Hot!

Its too bad that someone like Beatriz has to resort to this...but oh well I suppose any publicity is good publicity. I hope she gets exposed to a new generation of people. She is an incredible artist and look forward to hearing new stuff by her.

If you want more info, click here to acces their website.

Son tus perfumenes mujer....

2007-02-11T22:21:00.000-06:00

There are quite a few things that disgust me, however I find this one peculiar as its purpose has the opposite intention.

I cannot stand the smell of perfume or cologne! Ever since I was a kid, I grew disgusted of them and never liked them. I think it stems down because my mom had this cheap perfume that she would love to douse herself with called Taboo. Every Sunday when we would be out and about, I remember getting nauseous in the back seat as the fragrance attacked every single one of my orefices with no mercy. I think I may have even vomitted in the car once.

As a teenager and especialy a latino one in the ghetto, everybody would start wearing cologne and it was just unbearable going to high school and everyone wore it. I couldn't escape it! And during those times people aren't even sure of how much to use of it and end up smelling like a perfume factory. To this day there's grown men who haven't mastered the art.

Fragrances are just not sexy to me, the artificial smell of it makes me gag. And I have an incredibly strong sense of smell too so its simply murder.

Yuck.

What kind of life

2007-02-08T08:55:00.000-06:00

So as I was watching "Rosa Salvaje" this morning on Telefutura, there was a commercial for some sort of "Salud de Mujer" festival at Hawthorne Park this Sunday. As usual, they have an array of weird celebrities being there that you would have never imagined would even be relevant to such topics. However, there was one that I was particularly inrigued by. And that is the lovely Jacqueline Bracamontes

She will be a part of it. She's really pretty and I like her novelas (well I've only seen 2, lol). She was fierce in "Rubí" and not to mention, she dated my man Valentino Lanus in real life. The lucky bitch! It's a shame I'm not a celebrity starfucker otherwise I'd go to this festival. But I'm not that hardcore.

You know, I've never been geeked by celebrities. And the times that I have met people that I have truly admired like Maria Rojo, Cyndi Lauper and Tiffany, I never treated them like anything more than people doing their job whom I like. I never got geeked and was all "Omg! I'm such a big fan!! I love you!!" and crying. I don't give people I like that much treatment, let alone any celebrity like others do. I don't get how people get so worked up at the mere sight of someone famous, standing in the sidelines of movie premieres or other things. I mean, what's the point? What do you get out of it? How will it enrich your life? There's people out there who anytime there's an in-store or any random celebrity is making an appearance somewhere, they flock over there with their cameras. Jeez. I have only done that twice in my life..with Cyndi and with Bibi Gaytan and only because my boo boo is a mega-fan. So we both had reasons

So, if I was to give a fuck about anyone famous, I would really be excited over Jacqui's presence in Chicago. But I'm not so, meh. Maybe if I'm downtown somewhere I'll run into her and take my pic with her. And ask her if Valentino had a hairy sack..lol!

Mexican Directors

2007-02-06T17:52:00.000-06:00

You know alot has been said about Mexican movies this decade. And very good things may I add! I think its fantastic that Mexico had an artistic rennaisance this decade and has some international recognition as well! Not that it hasn't before, but it just seems more prominent and relevant. No other Mexican film has ever been nominated for so many Oscars as, for example, "Y tu Mama Tambien", "Amores Perros" and quite recently "Pan's Labyrinth" and Mexican-produced "Babel".

However, looking behind the camera...we'll find that these directors are actually rather cute! I've never seen them before, but they're adorable!

Alfonso Cuarón (Y Tu Mama Tambien, Children Of Men..directed Harry Potter as well)

Check out that salt 'n' pepper hair! Sessy!

Alejandro Gonzalez Iñarritu (Amores Perros, 21 Grams, Babel)

Who would have thought such cutie pies were always behind the camera on these great pieces of art! :) They should make cameos :)

So on that topic, let me just say I have not seen "Babel" or "Children of Men", but both seem to have great plots that I will probably like. Especially "Babel", I love fucked up movies about human misery. And "Children of Men", who wouldn't want to live in a world where birthing was illegal!! No more kids!!

Now I Remember

2007-01-31T02:11:00.000-06:00

I remember why I settled for Tower Records in the first place...because I had spent an exhausting time looking for a job in the first place! My god, to people out there who have never been in my situation, this is a nightmare. Thank your lucky stars you have a job. But what I find incredible is that I have so much experience and there are so many jobs out there! I refuse to believe that I don't qualify or am not good enough for neither one of them.

In this last hour or so, I have reviewed about 15 different jobs, wrote (or modified) appropriate cover letters for each position and forwarded my resume. One of them is worth noting. It's an office position for an escorting website. :) I wrote a nice cover letter in which I mentioned my principles and open-mindedness for all walks of life and sexual exploration. Here's hoping...

I'm determined to find something soon.

Re: Imbalance

2007-01-24T17:41:00.000-06:00

I think some of you misunderstood my last post as some sort of statement on my future. I apologize. I've been going thru alot of issues and my "career' wasn't the sole purpose of it all.

However, some real interesting observations on my life were brought up because of this post. Whilst I appreciate all the feedback, I can't help but comment on something..

I do not feel sorry for myself or wish that I be in someplace other than where I am. I may not have a career but I'm an adult who supports himself without anyone's help. No one is paying my rent so I don't want anyone out there "feeling sorry for me" as if I'm some sort of tragedy. Call me a loser all you want but no one's feeding me.

This takes me back to a "party" I went to once. I was conversing with this older man about something, laughing, having a good time. Then he asked me what I did for a living to which I said I worked at Corner Bakery (at the time). His face just changed in appalment as if I was insane! Then comes the inevitable "But you're so smart!".

I understand people have their careers and their own values as to what's important, but not everyone is going to lead the same life as you and not everyone is going to be at the same step in the walk of like that you were at that person's age or whatever other deciding factor. There is no need to judge others into thinking they're inferior for not being "at your level".And again, I'm getting by on my own, I fail to see why it should be anyone else's business as to how I get there.

I'm not hurting anyone and am still here. There's no need for people to superimpose their own goals unto me. Don't think just because you're working retail or elsewhere thats not deemed "acceptable" I must be a retard or lazy. Different steps for different folks.

To those out there who genuinely care for me (and u guys know who you are), don't construe this as a personal statemet to you. I know when you reach out to me its because you are offering guidance and NOT blind judgement. I just had to comment on this and hopefully educate people who project these things into thinking twice and seeing things from the other side as well.

Imbalance

2007-01-22T13:48:00.000-06:00

I've been going though a roller coaster of feelings lately and I haven't felt really talkative. I'm sorry to anyone who has taken it personally. Apparently I'm not the only person and some of you have even bigger issues than mine, so it doesn't help my situation to be stressed out that some of my friends are in the need to reach out to someone and I'm not fully here. I love you all though.

Nothing at all is new with me, all you have to do is go back and read my posts to get an idea. It's the same cycle and am only here for the ride of life contemplating getting off. Then I remind myself that I can't just think of myself and unfortunately for others If I get off it would tear them apart.

Maybe I'm being dramatic...maybe it's my chemical imbalances perturbing my sane thoughts, but allst I want to do is numb myself with emptiness for a minute.

Cheers

Sunday Go To meetin' time (1936)

2007-01-20T15:24:00.000-06:00

Massiel Remixed!

2007-01-18T12:19:00.000-06:00

I found this fan-made remix for "Mas Fuerte" somewhere online. I'm glad there is some love for Massiel! It's nothing special but just hearing Massiel remixed was nice enough for me. The real Diva of Spain. I love her. Enjoy!

Click here to download

Alcoholika

2007-01-15T19:30:00.000-06:00

Howdy!

This past weekend was my boo boo's big birthday bash! He had a "Quinceañera-x-2". Happy birthday! We all got really trashed and had a great time. Gotta love alcohol. I got really drunk and performed Janet's "If" for people. Afterwards we ended up at a Mexican restaurant where they had karaoke and I performed Lupita D'alessio. I vaguely remember all this..lol!!!

I had fun. You guys who read my blog and were there, it was great to see you all! I can't remember the last social event I attended. Hope I wasn't too obnoxious.

:)

Unemployment and Myspace.com

2007-01-10T06:10:00.000-06:00

This morning, I was bored and had nothing to do (after sending my resume to various places) so I decided to take a mental break and go on Myspace. I did something I would never do but because I boredom, I said.."what the fuck". I went and looked for people who were in my graduating class in my high school.

Don't get me wrong, I in no way miss those days or even enjoyed them . I HATED HIGH SCHOOL and I hated who I was. I had so many psychological and social issues that its a miracle still to look back and think how I have survived. I didn't have any friends and a few times would hang out with people I shouldn't have but I only did it because I looked for something to do. I'm not at all nostalgic but I was bored. I went to Curie Metro Hish School and graduated in the year 2000.

Now what did I find? Well most people I looked on where big question marks because I didn't remember any of them. I found alot of cholas and cholos with freestyle songs like Trinere and Lil Suzy on their webpages! Other people had Alacranes Musical and Nelly Furtado. I was looking to see who I recognized and was gay. Lotsa lesbians.

A few people, I remembered their faces. And MY GOD alot of people changed so much! Some got fat, others got trashy. Its amazing! I mean I know I look different than I looked back then but it was for the better! I look like an adult and sexy :).

So that was my fun adventure. The people who I do remember from high school I didn't see. Like this pretty girl who looked like Lea Thomspon. I think her name was Elizabeth, I could be wrong. And my prom date, lol. I actually saw her a few years ago working at a Target. I pretended I didn't recognize her but then again she didn't seem very talkative.

Now that I'm touching this subject...I always feel bad when I go out and run into people who remember me from Curie. And I am left feeling so bad! I usually play it off and be like "No I don't remember you sweetie! But its nice meeting you now!". Some people don't believe me and think I'm being a jerk (me?! a jerk?! lol) but really no!

I'm glad I went through it all and the dark days are over. I'm going to continue my journey.

Hello 2007

2007-01-04T19:19:00.000-06:00

Well, its been a fun week. I haven't done anything. My ringing of the new year was hilarious and fun. I wasn't planning on doing anything but I went out. This is the first time I've ever done new years outside of someone's home. Mainly because I am paranoid when it comes to having to go somewhere on that day. What with all the drunk drivers and shit. But it was fun, I got wasted beyond recognition, had a killer headache the next day.

Now I must engage in aggresive job searches.

Toodles!

P.I.N.

2006-12-31T06:21:00.000-06:00

How come people when using their ATM cards, they say "PIN Number"?

PIN stands for "Personal Identification Number"..isn't it a bit redundant to say PIN Number then if the "N" in PIN stands for "number"?

Just a thought. I always just say "PIN".

My favourites of 2006.

2006-12-30T15:50:00.000-06:00

Well kiddies, the end has come for this year. And let me say it's been an interesting one for me. Its definitely far from being the place that I thought I would be when thinking about it but you know what? I'm healthy, young and full of love and thirst for life so I shall go places. It's also been a year of firsts for me. This is the first year that I've held on to ONE job, believe it or not! I know it sounds awful but every year I switch jobs. When I was younger it would be because I get bored of them..but my last 2 jobs have been "involuntary lay-offs". I don't see it as a travesty but moreso God's way of telling me something. What that is I have yet to find out. I'm not going to lose any sleep over it though.

My favourite moments of this year...

* Meeting Bibi Gaytan
* seeing Shakeaspeare again and havign Chus play with that cute Maltese
* Discovering Raquel Olmedo's singing career!!!!
* Seeing Tiffany again with Joe and she in turn baptizing herself as "our Godmother of love".
* Being alive, healthy and employed
* Getting my Daniela Romo debut LP after years of searching for it.
* Meeting Chava in person

In no particular order, these were my highlights. This year has been a good one for me with music. I think. Working at Tower did have a benefit, I would get free Cds!

My favourite CDs this year, in no order.

HEATHER HEADLEY - IN MY MIND

Fantastic fantastic R&B record. Its almost "AC RnB" but it never gets sappy like Natalie Cole or Vanessa Williams records. And her voice is lovely.

JOHN LEGEND - ONCE AGAN

Wow, John really knocked me out with this record. I was a fan of his debut album but this record exceeds it as it does not have that overdubbed Kanye West touch of his record. Here its smooth 70's soul that will tickle your fancy

BELINDA - UTOPÍA

I can't stand Belinda..and as much as I wanted to not like this CD, I couldn't. Its fantastic teen pop but everything is done right. The vocals, the 80's tinged pop, the songwriting, everything is perfect and its a shame this little girl has done a better pop album than established acts in Mexico. Keep it up!

GWEN STEFANI - SWEET ESCAPE.

Say what you will, Gwen's one of those artists who likes to have fun with her music. Gone are the whiney "you broke up with me, I hate you" songwriting of her No Doubt days. Selfless fun!

THE PRESETS - BEAMS

This Australian band has yet to cause a stir in the USA, but their song "Are You The One?" captivated my attention. Its total electro and its fun music when you need to be active around your house or out running.

NELLY FURTADO - LOOSE

As much as I liked Nelly's first 2 albums, I really never expected her to adopt the RnB stylings she did on this record. And wow did she surprise me! She totally made it work for her and never sounded off. Probably the best pop album this year

LETOYA - LETOYA.

I first downloaded this CD jsut to hear and never did I think such a talent existed in Destiny's Child (her former group). This CD oozes with soul and Letoya's voice is fantastic! She is much better at singing than Beyoncé. I can see why Matthew Knowles never let her sing lead, she would have outshined her gorgeous daughter.

NOELIA - 40 GRADOS

Here's another person that I did not care for at all yet delivered a good album. Her early albums were borderline ethnic pop and ballads..then for a while turned to Reggaeton and Urban rhythms. With this CD she hooked up with Mexican producer great Adrian Posse and adopted the "rock pop" sound of Avril Lavigne and Kelly Clarkson. But she did it right! I don't think she's ever sounded as good at a genre as she does here.

JESSE & JOY - ESTA ES MI VIDA

Though I just discovered this CD, I must say its been one of my frequently listened to albums. This bro and sister duo from Mexico creates great Brit Pop and Joy, the lead singer, has a great soulful voice. So Elan was right, there is soul in Mexico. :)

MORNINGWOOD

This CD came out in the early part of the year and became one of my frequently listened to. Its fun upbeat music with heavy guitars. You would probably recognize the songs, they whored them off to TV commercials and shows. Anyone know "The Nth Degree" and "Jet Setter"?

CHRISTINA MILIAN - SO AMAZIN'

2006 just hasn't been her year, poor thing. But this CD is really good. Its her most solid effort to date and its a big mixture of Hip Hop and RnB stylings of Ciara. I think she has yet to find her own style but still, the CD is not as horrible as people made it out to be. The title track could have been the jam of the summer, but Def Jam dropped her. Oh well.

And an honorable mention to Rihanna..whose CD I hated but "S.O.S." was stuck in my head all year.
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So there you have it folks, my favourites of this year. I'm sure 2007 is going to look great for me. I turn 25 and things can only get better. I love you all out there who read my blog and give me your love through kind wishes and thoughts. Your positive energy is appreciated. May you all have a great ringing of the new year and I hope to still see you all here!

Ciao!

Sex Games!

2006-12-28T01:36:00.000-06:00

Omg..as u may have read on my previous post, I have been playing games online with Emulators. But I came across this particular one for the old Atari 2600 System. It's called "Custer's Revenge". The object of this game is to fuck an Indian woman tied up to a pole! I'm not joking! Its hilarious! Apparently according to Wikipedia.org, the feminists jumped down their throats in 1982 when this game was out. This game is sooo wrong yet I still play it!

Just had to share. Here's a pic.

My last day of work for 2006

2006-12-22T04:59:00.000-06:00

So folks, the end finally came for me at Tower Records. Its been an exhausting and interesting 3 months to say the least. I really really didn't think I could make it through for all this torture but I did. I'm a survivor.

I'll really miss Tower Records. Not so much the fact that I was working there, but this was a great place to find any type of music, even if it was overpriced. Especially for LAtin music, finding catalog albums is going to be incredibly hard to find physically in a store. No other store will carry CDs by all my old broads like Tower used to. Oh well :(

But now that its over, I'm going to relax for the rest of the year! I'm so excited even though I know I shouldn't be. I feel like I'm getting a Winter Break.

With this situation..there are 10 words I never ever want to hear again

1. Liquidating
2. Percent
3. Close
4. Lively (creepy liquidator guy's name who was there EVERY FUCKING DAY)
5. Debit and Credit
6. Validate
7. In Stock
8. Forty-Nine (long story)
9. Fixtures
10. Discounts

These are words I would use EVERY day and make me cringe at thinking about them. *Shudder*.

Well folks, thanks for all the kind wishes and believe me, I shall be triumphant and find a better job.

The Diva Does Game Emulators!

2006-12-18T17:59:00.000-06:00

Howdy!

This is exciting in a way...my last week of work. And I have absolutely no idea what I will be doing in 2007. I'm going to enjoy living in ignorance for a while. I have full checks coming, plus my one week of vacation pay and then eventually my tax refund. And if worse case scenario I'm not able to land a job somewhere, I'll try my best to file for unemployment though I have a feeling I may not be eligible (long story folks). So I should be OK.

Anyway, enough of that. Being that I've been taking it easy, I've finally entered the world of GAME EMULATORS. Ever since I first got a computer, I've known about these programs that can emulate old video games and even arcade games yet I never really fully understood how to use them. They don't require alot of memory but on my PC I tried when I got the internet and it never worked.

But on Macs, everything is incredibly easy and after a while it was a matter of finding the programs for Macs, dragging them on and alas, I was ready to play! Amazing! So for the last 2 months, I downloaded nothing but Nintendo, Sega and my favourites, the Turbo Grafx-16 games! My god, so many games that I used to play as a kid at my fingertips! This provides hours of entertainment for me. I've even stopped downloading other crap and focused all my free and wasteable time to these games! Most recently though, I've been addicted to this one space shooter game for the Turbo Grafx 16 called "Blazing Lasers".

However, it wasn't all entirely easy and I am taking the liberty of writing this all out should there be other Mac-users who had this problem. Now mind you, I'm new to all this yet I was able to patiently figure out all these details. That is a testament to my ability to learn anything at all as I am a patient person and a fast learner. First, when downloading these programs, I was unable to use full screen and to configure my keypad. So I had to do another search and try to get help and I found that to do this I had to find an "Emulator Enhancer". Now what this does is it adds extra features to your emulators. So I did and then I had to go to my system folder and drag the program to the "application support" folder. Now it added all the features to every single emulator, including the ability to plug in a USB controller!

Yep, you guessed it. As soon as I learned this I ran out and bought the cheapest most plain USB controller I could find! I was so excited, I would be able to play my old nintendo games with a controller! So I bought this "Logitech Precision Gamepad" for 9.99 and checked that it was compatible to Macs. I plug it in and..well it does nothing! The system recognizes the controller but nothing was happening. After doing yet more extensive research, I learn that Logitech controllers are NOT compatible with game Emulators for Macs but do work for everything else. I was mad, pissed and dissapointed. I was so excited! So for 2 months I went on.

THEN..I don't know what I did, but I downloaded a Super Nintendo Emulator (Snes9x) and somehow I was able to configure the gamepad for all my emulators!! I don't even know what made me check back after I had given up on it, but I did!

I went in to my emulator options and on the tab for "joysticks" where before I wasn't able to make anything set, I pressed the "set" button for the individual button I wanted and pressed the button I wanted to set on the controller and it recognized it. So I set up all my emulators with this joypad control and was able to play!!

I'm so excited! Now I've moved on to the next level and downloaded an Arcade emulator. This one is a little more complicated than the rest. Its not a matter of finding the program and then the games and that's that. You have to find the program and go through the system folders and install the actual game programs into the folders. Once you're done, you turn on the application (which is like a mini arcade machine on your screen) and if done right, the game appears as an option to the left. I think for the most part, I've had success in installing things right but again I didn't know anything on how to do this yet I was able to figure it out. So now I am enjoying the coin-op versions of "The Simpsons", "X-Men", the Capcom fighting games ("Street Fighter, Marvel-vs-Capcom) and my favourites, Bubble Bobble, Ghosts N Goblins and DonkeyKong!

So yes, I've been quite geeked over this. Hehehe. Thanks for reading!

How dare you!

2006-12-14T13:09:00.000-06:00

Hola!

This has been happening alot lately at work and it doesn't really get to me but it does annoy me and I thought I should address this. Being that the whole buisness is going under, why do some people find the need to ask you "so what are you going to do?".

1. You don't know me, who the fuck are you?

2. Get another job, what do you expect?

3. If you're not paying my bills, I don't see how that's any of your concern. Unless you got a job for me or something.

4. Why should I tell you anything?

Seriously, why do people even ask these questions?! And then the worse is when people are "Well I hope you get another job!""Good luck!". Ugh that annoys the shit out of me. Because apparently I really really am retarded and can't do anything else.

I usually ignore people and stare blankly. And I say something like "Good look to you in life! I hope you find a good place to spend your money!". :P God I hate people.

Well to be completely fair, some people, though not alot, are genuinely sympathetic. Like they'll say things, "well that sucks! Damn capitalism.". Or even the consumer reaction, which is the same one I have..."where am I going to get my import CDs and singles from?!". That is OK. But once you start poking areound in other people's business making insensitive comments is where I draw the line. I don't even tolerate that from my own mother, now a complete stranger. Fuck off.

Virgen De Las Virgenes

2006-12-12T10:31:00.000-06:00

Sup folks!

Nothing new from my end. Just riding out the clock at work and waiting things out. I'm just going to try to have a merry Christmas and a happy 2007.

So today is La Virgen De Guadalupe's birthdate. Or the day she was discovered by Juan Diego, I forget. I'm sure people hung around in the underpass in the wee hours of the morning today at Fullerton, lol.

Oh well folks. Anyone seen any good movies lately? Other than Almodovar's Volver (which I give a 8/10), I haven't.

Well I promise yo write to you guys later. There's tons of things to discuss but I have to be at work in 30 mins. Ciao!

Happy December!

2006-12-07T00:14:00.000-06:00

Thank you so much to you guys who read my blog. So sorry for the delay, thanks for the patience

So its been a while since I wrote. Not sure exactly why. I've been busy looking for work, having family drama, being deppressed at my circumstances while trying to balance the good I have with my partner, my dog, my health and my music. All this can be exhausting so I think I didn't have time to write. Sorry! But I'm back! Happy december

Other than the usual, I've been the same. Have any of you guys heard any good new CD's? Being that I no longer work for a real record store, I don't get much new music and I don't make enough money to go out and physically buy albums. I have to resort to whats online. The CD's I recommend are the new John Legend (bloody fantastic RnB), Jesse & Joy (new Mexican bro-sis duo) and believe it or not...the new Gwen Stefani album

Its a crap album, but then again so was her last! That's what was appealing about it, the lack of seriousness. In all fairness, I initially despised Gwen's debut for those reasons..but after being shoved crap like Kelly Clarkson, M.I.A. and even worse (especially being gay, its a sin to not like it), MADONNA...I came to appreciate a mentally unchallenging album like Gwen's. Its a nice vacation from real music. So this new records pumps up the crap and the charm as well! But fags be warned..there is no "What You Waiting For?" electro on this record. Its more in the vein of "Hollaback Girl".

Christmas is coming up..and I don't have a job! I still don't know if I can get unemployment (long story). I'm rather excited actually! I had to work last year so this will be a nice vacation.

There's plenty more to come, I promise to write at least 3 times a week from now on. Believe me, I need the release of these thoughts. Not just for you guys to read..but writing it and just having come out is necessary. Letting u in to my little void is a nice dessert. I appreciate the feedback.

Ta ta!

Chris Cagle

2006-11-19T00:41:00.000-06:00

Goddayum is this man FINE!!!!!

Holy shit. Ask me if I even know any of his songs but I do know him. GRRRRRR! He is so fucking fine! I want Chris Cagle to come churn my butter!! Grrrr!

MTV TR3S..did I miss something?

2006-11-16T06:48:00.000-06:00

Am I completely out of the loop as an American citizen of latino descent that I find this channel disturbing??

Mtv has just launched their "bilingual" channel that caters to contemporary pop music with a "latino" flair. The reason why I put the in quotation is because they neither speak English nor Spanish. I've been watching this channel for an hour now and I hear chopped sentences that mix English and Spanish. That and I've already heard a racist remark from Jeannie Ortega talking about "white parties" and how "they" are so boring and we're not.

I as a Latino find this kind of speech patters annoying. Americans think we as latinoes don't speak English to begin with and to speak it improperly isn't helping. And the Spanish territories look down on us as Latinoes in the USA as we aren't "real" and the fact that we're murdering the language by not speaking either language furthers feeds this. I always feel we should try to live as one another and be people yet this constant attempts at dividing people as "us" and "them" is incredibly detrimental to us and furthering the decay of our Latino american culture.

This channel is presenting a negative perspective on us. Their intent is to mass-market our supposed Latino culture but all they're doing is trying to make us look like caricatures as opposed to people WHO INDEED HAVE SOMETHING INTELLIGENT TO SAY. Am I really missing something here where I find this image as us as Latinoes in the USA disturbing?? If this is indeed our future, lets top it right now. This is like Blaxploitation in the 70's.

We need to do something about this and try to fix this. MTV TR3s is making us look like idiots who are incapable of forming real thoughts. I say we should all write to the media and present our argument and by us, I'm refering to the intelligent people of Latin American background in this country who object to being marketed as cartoon characters incapable of speaking one language right.

Ahi viene...

2006-11-09T14:54:00.000-06:00

IRIS CHACÓN!!

My god...I hadn't seen this in years!! This show was a staple of my childhood saturday nights. Look at that booty! Its obnoxious! How can a fat ass like that be on a woman that size??

I guess this would be the difference between a "fat ass woman" and a "woman with a fat ass".

Politically correct.

2006-11-08T19:16:00.000-06:00

I feel that as a society, we can learn alot by studying social behavior and trends of the past. They can help us understand ourselves as people and the circumstances of that time. Prior to the civil rights movements, American society ridiculed ethnicities as a form of entertainment and was never questioned. We of course now know better, or so we think.

Prior to the "politically correct era" of the 90's, this kind of behavior was still present in many forms, only that instead of direct ridiculing, it was moreso on public behavior. Guns, cigarrette smoking, violence on television was still deemed appropriate and never questioned the effect on children. Remember those toy guns and candy cigarrettes? Apparently they're responsible for our violent behavior and our need for vices. We don't know how accurate that is but we chose to omit this from our children's view.

Did banning such behavior really make you want to shoot a gun or smoke a cigarrette? Of course not, because you knew better and like any kid, you asked questions. If children don't see this kind of behavior and register its existance in society, how can they ever know the effects of it?

So there is where we fall into those problems again and our youth engage in these activities.

I feel the same towards the topic of discussion I mentioned in my first paragraph: the use of imagery to ridicule ethnicities in the form of entertainment. I'll use this form: Blackface

Blackface, for whatever reason, became a standard of minstrel shows during most of the early part of the 20th century. A white person would wear such features to "resemble" a typical coloured person and engage in that kind of speech. This was all too common and until colored folks stood up and said "that's enough", people then saw that you can't merely paint people like that. The imagery was deemed innapropriate and rightfdully so.

However, now a days people never discuss this in schools or in the media. Society has chosen to white wash the racist trends of the past and pretend to our kids as this kind of mentality never existed..so what has happened? We've fallen again into a trap. But nowadays the caricatures are "homosexuals". Look at movies, or even "Will & Grace". "Gay" doesn't think..gay acts. Gay has no say, gay makes the punchlines or in some cases IS the punchline. Society seems to think that the fact that gay is even on the map is a step forward but really..what kind of step are we talking about? Where are we going?

Aside from the sexuality, once we resolve this issue, it'll come back in another form. So instead of debating, we should just reflect and see why people do the things they do.

I'm not rude

2006-11-07T22:01:00.000-06:00

I really am not. I don't understand why people think this of me.

I am bold and frank and tend to speak without a filter...but I have a grasp on proper tact and I know how to say things. Rude people do not think at all and are irrational.

Just because I'm direct and honest doesn't mean that I'm rude..it just means I know what I want. People who think I'm rude for acting this way have their own issues with society to deal with and can't hold it against people like me.

Tah. Feel free to comment. Be as "bold and frank" as you want.

Feeling so disabled

2006-11-03T15:06:00.000-06:00

Howdy folks and happy Friday (and November for that matter). Nothing new on my end, still looking to jump ship from work but no sights yet.:(. There's this hair saloon that was interested but only for Mondays. And well Best Buy hasn't called me back and the staffing agency isn't doing anything for me. So I have to just keep my chin up. I feel so crippled sometimes but I can't just sit still and watch things zoom by.

U know, I was just remembering something. I'm not as "cold hearted" as some people might think I am. I may be rude and bold..but I'm compassionate. And whenever I see crippled people talking and what not, I don't get uncomfortable, I don't run and hide..but it makes me feel sad. This is a reaction that people with handicaps DO NOT want you to have towards them. I can't help it. It's not because I feel sorry for them, why would I feel sorry for someone for something they couldn't control. If anything..I feel sorry because people like to put these kinds of people on the sidelines and not treat them like an average person. Its as if people think they're all retarded. People immediately react to them if they can't enunciate properly or ar mumbling because of muscle conditions. I treat people just the same but I feel bad that they're put in this sort of category with "special people". I'm sure they're capable of things that the average joe can't. Its almost as if living in a cage and not being able to act out in the way you want to. But their cage is their disabled body.

Anyway..sorry for my sensitive rambling. That's how I've been feeling lately.

Unalienable rights

2006-10-30T20:34:00.000-06:00

Why can't people comprehend that there has to be no explanation to everything that's wrong in the universe? Why must everything have a direct reason for being? When I'm having a crazy mood and don't want to do anything, why must there be a reason? It is my right to have a bad day. bad mood. I don't have to offer explanations.

Not everything has a cure, its best to just let things be and let the universe roll out.

Girls Just Want To Have Fun

2006-10-30T16:13:00.000-06:00

Hey folks! Sorry for no updates. Been running around. Still no word yet on a job, tomorrow I'll know if Best Buy is hiring me. So that's at least one good thing.

I wanted to share one of my finds. Its a trashy trashy trashy cover of "Girls Just Want To Have Fun" by LOS HOROSCOPOS DE DURANGO. Its done in Durangense (Regional Mexican style) beats.

I swear, this genre in general must not have any creativity. All these groups do nothing but covers!!! I mean the common "naco" won't know the difference, lots of them don't even listen to real music and depend on this peasant shit to educate them on songs. They're like "quien es La 5a Estacion, Edith Marquez y Rocio Jurado"?.

For example, Los Horoscopos de Durango..all but 1 of their songs on their new album are covers. These girls, apart from being really ugly, can't even sing that well. I figured what they lacked in looks they would have in some sort of credible status as an artist. Oh well

Right click and "save as" here to download and let me know what u think!

Peace

"Cantando Por Un Sueno" contestant who recorded a CD in 1997!

2006-10-24T00:44:00.000-05:00

Hey,

In case u guys don't know this show, this is an embarrasing reality show from Mexico in which a "has been" and a "nobody" pair off in a competition in which the winner gets their dream come true. But get this...their dreams are usually health related! So their dreams are an array of life-threatening ilnesses, crippling disabilities and birth defects!! What kind of fucked up show would pair off people to compete to see if their health issues will get resolved? So the losers basically are SOL. That's an unfortunate way to play with people's emotions and I think its wrong. Its the same as if they were pitting starving people to compete for a bowl of rice!

Anyway, the point of my post is not to critique this show as it is a waste of time...but rather to point out one of my finds. Not sure if any of you watch this, but one of the "dreamers" actually recorded an album in 1997! Her name is Lorena Schlebach and she is teamed up with Alan (ex-MAGNETO) and coached by Arianna, an 80's balladeer (whom I like as well lol) popular for her biggest hit "En Mi Soledad". So in reality,, she's not a "nobody" but more so a "flop artist!"

She recorded this grupera-pop album in 1997 under the name spelling LORENNA. It's called "Contigo Es Amar" and all these songs were written by Marco Antonio Solis. IT's so funny that even though she had all these things going for her (the most obvious her good looks), she still flopped badly and never got a second chance. Now she's a contestant on this reality show, how lame! She was a runner up too in the finale (Rocio Banquells and her nobody won).

Me and my boo boo happened to notice one time when we were watching. We both knew about Lorenna cuz we're both losers who remember nobodies like this. We saw her and said "oh, she's really pretty and can sing well...WAIT A MINUTE?!..Lorenna...pretty..singer?!?!?!". And then we compared and ta-da, it WAS HER!

I took the liberty of sharing a song for you guys, in case you were curious.

Click here to download "Soy Otra".

Enjoy!

Mexican pride..

2006-10-19T00:21:00.000-05:00

During my 24 and then some years here on Earth, I'd say I've been consciously living my life since the age of 10. By that I mean gaining the ability of asking my own questions and beginning the disatachment from the lies the faith and upbringing has placed upon me.The first 10 years were the "seed sowing" years where things I couldn't understand were planted in me and evrything withing this period blossomed into the flower of life. So I've been alive really for 14 years.

During these years, I've gone through many ups and downs. I've tried many things, listened and saw other points of views on my quest to learn what it is about existance that appeals to me so that I may take my part in this universe.

I've never defined myself, which is something that I never tried to do. I don't look at my past or at my surroundings and put a label as to what to call me, what to think of me or what to expect from me. That of course doesn't stop others from doing that for me. This is done by analizing my clothes, my speech, the music I listen to and every other aspect of a personality. I've never deterred people from doing so, its human nature to segregate. However, it can be easy to fall into these traps that society places and before you know it you find yourself living a life pre-determined. That's why so many people in the ghetto stick to ghetto life, because they start believing that's what they are.

During these times...I've experienced these aforementioned types who try to make a determination of the kind of person I am and attempt to put a label on me. I've been labeled a contradictory amount of things that to recall them makes me laugh. I've heard everything from a beaner, valley girl, nerdy, ghetto, nelly, even to a boy band boy (yeah, lol). It's funny because as I mentioned before, I can never please anyone and no matter what, I can't just be ME.

That is why you'll never see me try to associate myself with Mexican pride, homo pride, fat pride or any other activity that purports to make people into one dimentional beings when in reality, all our layers make us people, not just one. I like every part about me and all the litttle fibers of my years on earth that have bled into my body and soul to make me who I am today, that is why I don't bother to only focus on one of them. I'm gay, I'm a lover, I'm a poet and an anarchist. But most importanly..I'm a person and I'm alive

This came up lately because someone made a comment about me regarding the fact that I'm very vocal and open to talking about Mexico and the music I like. As if somehow it is rare for someone to be PROUD of it as others seem to take their ethnicity as a detrimental part of their acceptance in society. I tried my best to explain "I don't go out of my way to be proud of anything, I'm just me."

Thanks for reading
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Best Buy.....hmmmm

2006-10-15T17:46:00.000-05:00

Hey folks,

I just got a call from Best Buy. I had applied online for "merchandising" position i.e. pricing, putting displays etc. They called me back and asked me if I was interested in interviewing. I said yes, but I have this potential yet unsure possibility at the medical staffing facility which is not for sure work. They did tell me at Best Buy what the pay rate, and its slightly more than what I make now. It seems like a cool place to be and I would get a discount on shit. But I am scheduled to interview tomorrow, maybe I can check it out, see what the schedule would be. They did say they would stsrt part time but it may change....hmmm

What do u guys think?

I don't give a flying fuck

2006-10-14T01:01:00.000-05:00

Howdy folks!

Sorry for not writing this past week. I've been hella busy. At Tower its still the same shit. Same stupid people, same stupid questions. I've adopted a super rude attitude and now I don't give a fuck who you are. Everythihg must go, what we have is what we have. Don't ask me if something's in stock. I'm not helping you with shit. Tower Records doesn't exist anymore, why should I care.

So as far as my meeting on thursday with the staffing agency, all went well. I just have to fax in this quiz thing about HIPAA (hospital identity protection..etc..I forget) that I have to pass with a 70% score or higher in order to work. Afterwards I'm to call her and get an assignment. I told her I could only do the city and what my abilities are so I should be able to find something and jump ship from Tower. Lord knows i can't stand to be there long enough. The only thing with this agenc is that they're "temp to hire" so they assign people for a time period, then its up to the employer to whether or not they want to hire you full time so its a gamble.

Otherwise, my life has been taken a hold by this situation. That's all I do, look for work and survive my current job. I haven't even had time to eBay some shit and rip LP's for people. Thats extra money but I haven't had time.

On a totally unrelated subject, I found this very interesting house mix by Celine Dion. Yes, that sappy ass bitch used to record pop music before going all AC in the 90's. One of these songs was from 1994 called "Misled". It was produced by Rick Wake, the guy behind Taylor Dayne and early Mariah Carey. I took the liberty of sharing. Enjoy! Click here